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My boyfriend spoke to me this morning about a future of being married and kids. I love my relationship with my family and would want to have that someday with my kids. But I have never ever romanticized being pregnant. I horrible cramps. Sometimes they make me google on how to remove my ovaries. They are so painful sometimes, I’m throwing up I can’t sleep well excessive cravings that make me moody😔 and I’m often irritated. This is me once a week every month. And just the cramps pain makes me not want to even venture into being pregnant. I have a low pain tolerance😔 I was with my aunt when she was pregnant and that wasn’t looking like what I’d want to go through. The heartburn swollen feet the anxiety of if your baby is okay. Then the entire pain that comes with delivery and also the thought of postpartum depression or getting blind or loosing my teeth. it’s so scary to me. I was telling him if when we were ready and we had enough money for surrogacy i would rather do that. Or we could adopt. Maybe down the line knowing I have a supportive partner would help calm my fears. Till then I’m still so scared.🥺 he was so understanding and calm when I spoke about my fears. He does want his own kids but he was telling me that he doesn’t want us to argue especially when it’s my body 🥺 and we could always find a way around it when we were ready.

For me, I like a short vacay of like 4 days, 3 nights or 3 days, 2 nights. Anything shorter is too short. Anything longer is too long. And i like for it to be planned in terms of what I’d do and where I’d stay. But i like it to be unplanned as to when I’ll actually go. Thats about the most spontaneous I’ll get.

Like I had been planning to go to Vegas since I was 12. The goal was to go by 21 but it always got postponed because I was trying to wait around for others to be financially ready. I had already knew where I’d stay/play/shop, what I’d sightsee/visit/eat once there. But i just never knew when I’d actually get to go. All my men and friends kept making up excuses. My job was never gonna cut me break. So one day, I just up and said, fck it, I’m going with or without y'all and fck that job too. I booked the reservations and had a brilliant time for the days I stayed. I did it again for North Carolina. Once I get back in the groove, I’ll just keep planning things to do but not the actual date for when I’ll do it. Next stop is hopefully Dallas or Miami/Tampa/Orlando but I dread the 5-6 days I’ll be gone since I’ll need about 2 days per city. Then after that will likely be NYC or Bahamas or Canada. Now when it comes to Aspen or Australia, I refuse to go alone. I need a witness in case fall down a mountain or get attacked by a shark, croc, spider or snake 😭
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