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so im male 15 and gay, There is th is guy in my school that is being very sweet to me and nice, he's is really handsome and stuff buts acts straight, he asked me what i was doing tonight and told me i was so pretty, He was looking in my eyes in a flirty way, the sight of him makes me blush, But people have told me he is sweet and flirty like that to everyone and he is straight, But the way he smiles and looks at me drives me crazy, Literally my only motivation when i wake up is to see him at school, Not to sound weird but i have literally never loved someone so much, every time he sees me he gets really close smiles and stuff, But it feels too good to be true, I want to flirt back to him but everytime im face to face with him i freeze up, I have heard from others that he is a homophobic bully, I have also heard from others that he is the sweetest guy and likes boys, so what do i do? Im terrified that he is a homophobic guy playing with my feelings, But at the same time every inch of my body melts at the sight of him his voice everything.

I've been overweight my entire life. Both of my parents had sh*tty genetics and I inherited 100% of all of their sh*tty DNA (it's the main reason why I'll never conceive kids).

I've been contemplating weight loss surgery for a while now, even before I've put on extra weight. Even back in 2018, I was thinking about bariatric surgery, and I weighed less then. I decided against it because it seemed too extreme and I figured proper exercise and diet would be enough.

I've been semi-regularly going to martial arts gyms since 2012. I used to do Jiu Jitsu & Judo, then Boxing, then Powerlifting, then MMA, and here in Korea, Kickboxing. Never lost any weight at all. The number NEVER went down on the scale! Not that it matters or anything, but part of it might be because I have a minor medical condition called Hypothyroidism.

I remember joining a cardio gym shortly after high school in 2006 and having my personal trainer flirt with me and make inappropriate comments towards me, whether she was on the clock or not. It was uncomfortable, because I was 245 lbs (111 kg) back then and even that felt unattractive to me.

In 2013, I first started keeping a daily food log and counting calories (spoiler: it's useless and stupid to do so). I was 275 lbs (128 kg) then.

In early 2019, I remember hitting 300 lbs (136 kg) for the first time and I felt awful about it, because I've never once been a glutton or an overeater.

Now I'm at my heaviest at like 315 lbs (145 lbs), at least.

I'm 181 cm in the morning waking up, and 179 cm at the end of the day.

I f*cking HATE this body of mine, because literally not a single thing about it works right! After years in martial arts gyms and absolutely nothing to show for it, weight wise, I've decided I might as well just get the stomach sleeve surgery since I'm not getting any younger or taller. Doing the surgery will mean I can probably can't do martial arts again or will gain much muscle, but chances are, it's a moot point.