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Whenever we hang out ( which is 3-4 times a week), he will say that I never seem happy and never seem satisfied. He will even ask me to smile... I guess I am not happy or satisfied due to the fact that he only has time for sex. On top of that, he is the one requesting to see me 3-4 times a week and if I say I cannot, he will accuse me of going to see my "side guy"( who does not exist). Basically the reason I believe he has ghosted me is because every time we hang out, I am upset with him after.

Since he sees that I am upset, he will ask me to tell him why, I will not. I cannot even get the words out. So, I will leave upset after he pretty much begs me to tell him what is wrong before I leave. I just can't do it. When I finally am able to figure out what is wrong with me, I will text it to him but I get so embarrassed that I will just block him after I send it because I do not know how he responds ( I block him on everything not just Imessage). He has asked me what I like about him twice, I have been unable to tell him. I just sit in silence. He will say that I never seem happy... I will not say anything. He even asked me what I wanted out of the relationship and I said nothing.

I saw him last Tuesday and ended up getting upset because he had to go to the gym with his cousins and once again, I went silent. He said "If you're not happy, tell me." I said nothing for 10 minutes while he drove around to drop me off. I once again text him how I felt and blocked him on everything afterwards. I usually come back and act like nothing happened, so I had texted him asking to hang out and he agreed but I have not heard from him since.

My ex and I went through a lot of fights. Regardless, we managed to make it work because of our strong emotions. Just before our breakup, it reached a point to where he was calling me names and bringing up my family, basically no respect left on his part & coming at me for little things like me saying “thanks” instead of “thank you.” I blew up on him eventually & mentally checked out. 1 day we got into a fight and he said he’d block me (something he does when he’s mad). I then accepted some requests from guys- i was really mad-on social media (didn’t message them and deleted them later. He found out and hell broke and also found platonic msgs between a male friend I’ve known for 5 years. Those msgs included funny memes. I stopped being friends w/ this guy for him. He asked to check my phone, I didn’t agree because he should trust me & wouldn’t want him to think it’s ok to check my phone whenever he feels the need in the future. We ended up breaking up. We kinda kept in touch though to reconcile. Weeks turned into months leading up to us meeting in person. As we were chatting, he told me his expectations which included he checks my phone, I agreed. Then he asks to see my male followers to ask how I know them. I told him some are friends (since HS) and he didn’t like that. He said he doesn’t like his girlfriend to have male friends & I should take off whoever he doesn’t like. I had a reaction and didn’t let him check my phone so ofc he had major issues. We never got back together but now we’re surfacing the relationship again he told me of the same expectations. I’m really conflicted and don’t know if getting back with given expectations are normal or not. Is getting back a good idea?