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It might involve sexual things or it might not and I’d be clear about my intentions from the beginning. Not that long ago he said something that implied he’d date me if he could. That combined with a long flirtatious and semi-romantic history between us and the way I’ve seen him look at me and act with me makes me believe there’s a good chance he’d be with me.

REASONS I FEEL IT MIGHT BE A GOOD IDEA:

• My mom and I saw a movie in which a woman decided to be with a guy despite knowing he’s going to die. My mom said it’s not about how long the connection lasts, it’s about how deep it is. That made me feel like maybe it’s worth experiencing a relationship with my friend even though my ultimate goal is to find someone else.

• A part of me feels like life is short, and I should live in the moment as long it’s not something unsafe.

• I’m afraid that if I don’t take my chance while I have it, I’ll never know for the rest of my life how it feels to truly be with him romantically.

• I want him so badly it sometimes drives me crazy.

• A part of me feels like the reasons for not being with him don’t really matter when I want him so badly.

REASONS I FEEL IT MIGHT BE A BAD IDEA:

• I’ve never had a first kiss or date before and a part of me wants to save those things for a guy I feel more romantic about.

• I’m afraid I won’t be able to not compare the way my future fiancé touches me with the way my friend would touch me.

• A part of me hopes to lose my virginity to someone I’m more deeply in love with.

• Since I’m uncertain about the situation, a part of me feels like a ‘better safe than sorry’ approach is best.

He said months ago that he doesn’t reciprocate my feelings, but recently started flirting back, then backing off, then flirting back…. It’s really messing with my head and I feel like I’m going insane… it needs to stop. Doesn’t help that he’ll cheer me up when I’m down either.
And he’ll respond well to my sexual flirting or carry on conversations about sex… and he’ll be clearly enjoying it, like smiling and blushing and he even once got hard around me…. I dunno… it’s just too much.

do I send him a message saying it’s best we don’t talk anymore? Do I just gradually pull away? What do I do?
also he’s much older than me. I should’ve stopped it a year ago. Weird thing is that he never followed me back on instagram, but he follows everyone else back… but he would sometimes comment on my Facebook posts..