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I don’t have OCD, I have moderate anxiety & think I developed this habit due to trauma. I’ve had pretty bad experiences in the workplace as a result of my social/generalized anxiety, along with just straight up bad luck from 2012-2018 ish (a cluster of just crappy/odd experiences back to back). Again, nothing life threatening but enough to make me miserable and now wary. I just started a new job & am so worried I will have the bad experience I did back in my early-mid twenties post college in 2019. It was my first real gig & felt so overwhelmed from all aspects from mgmt/coworkers/my performance etc, worried that will happen again.

After that role, my longest job was at another school that I worked at for almost two years & that was a better experience compared to my last role, different stressors but wasn’t as uneasy. I proved myself at that role it seemed & feel more equipped to handle myself professionally when it comes to communication/being more “knowledgeable” since I have experience (or so I hope). Even though years passed by, I’m still so worried I’ll have bad work experiences again & I don’t think it’ll ever go away. That’s why when I feel really uneasy, if something I’m doing unrelated feels too hasty, I try to be careful & expect this mindset will transpire when I’m at work. Or I might count to 3 if too many random unrelated things are going on/I second guess something & hope that will result in things not going back to the chaos that my life once felt like.

Or back to that period of bad luck years ago, if certain annoying things happen to me back to back 2-3+ times, can be minor inconveniences like issue with Amazon delivery etc, I feel like I’m spiraling & hyperventilate/assume my life will be like that shitty period again.

It’s like a superstition & I don’t take it seriously but wonder if anyone relates.

I am frustrated with my best friend that won't do me a solid...

I am in the midst of getting my claims adjuster license. I just finished my course and passed my practice exam; I am now able to take my final exam. However, my exam has to be done 1 of 2 ways: proctored or I have to have a "witness" someone to be present during my exam that is not a relative, employee, or coworker and fill out an affidavit.

I could do the proctored exam, but my camera quality on my laptop is sh\*t and they need a very clear, decent camera quality because they use facial recognition software for the exam and also, they need to see my DL, (driver's license) and be able to read information off of it.

I've asked my best friend to be a witness for my exam or to let me borrow her laptop to take it while being proctored so she wouldn't have to be present. I even offered the convenience of coming to her home so she wouldn't have to worry about leaving her home or getting her laptop back.

I've asked her twice over text if she would allow me to use her laptop or be a witness for me, and she ignored me both times. No response whatsoever. She just changed the topic of conversation. I don't get to see her a lot because we have very different work schedules, so I haven't been able to ask in person. She knows I am unhappy with my current employment which is why I've decided to take a different career path.

I am p\*ssed off and frustrated. I feel like I'm not asking for much so I don't get why she cannot do me this favor and I have also asked in a very convenient manner I feel like. I feel like she's not being a good friend, mostly by not even giving me any sort of response and saying no. Am I in the wrong for being upset?