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I have had to turn down a few women over the years for this reason (despite liking everything else about them).

It’s tried to force myself to date a woman who I wasn’t physically attracted to once in my life. That ended in absolute disaster. I also left feeling like a pos because I got her hopes up.

But I have never straight up told a woman I was turning her down because I wasn’t physically attracted to her. It just sounds way too cruel. I have alluded to it (e. g. said I wasn’t feeling the spark, she’s not my type, etc). But not said it straight out. I know the desire to feel attractive and getting attention from men is a big deal to their existence (it is for men too even though we don’t admit it)

However I have had woman reject me and say this straight to my face. It was the truth but they could of just said “sorry but I don’t have feelings for” or just “sorry I am not interested”. I would of gotten the hint just as easily. Not need to point the obvious anyhow then necessary.

Women often accuse men of being superficial and cruel. But I’ve observed the opposite more often then once. I think men have generally conditioned to be more “delicate” when rejecting women. But not the same vice versa.

Since I have recently finished uni and turned
21 I've been thinking whether or not I should live somewhat of a degenerate lifestyle or focus fully on my goals and religious beliefs for my early 20s. Uni taught me I can't really balance these things because one usually ends up pulling me in and it's usually being a degenerate; parties, clubs, girls, etc. I find that it's such a waist of time but when I try and avoid it I feel left out since l'm so young, and on top of this l've been feeling guilty for ignoring Christianity. I feel as if I should shut myself off from degeneracy and social media nonsense even though that's what most of my friends are involved in and dedicate my 20s for completely focusing on mostly work, healthy lifestyle, exercise, being alone (not being lonely just talking to people less), etc.

I want a stable financial income and to be self employed within the next 5 years and for me personally i don't see that happening if I don’t quit all my bad habits and go on monk mode for a couple of years. Everyone I know in my life who's very successful has had to sacrifice a lot with minimal balance, such as time, social life and relationships. Is it worth it?