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I am 31 years old. I have held 25 jobs since the age of 15. I have been hospitalized in a psych hospital more than 20 times. In my late teens/early 20s, I became obsessed with finding another virgin to lose my virginity to. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old young woman, and later I was arrested and convicted of stalking after trying to desperately and pathetically win her love. I ended up losing my EMT license after the entire ordeal. Then I went into software engineering and because I became desperate after trying to find a woman without a romantic past (after realizing being a woman's first love was more important than taking her virginity), I managed to get myself into an even more troublesome situation. I ended up getting kicked out of the software engineering community and being blacklisted all around town.

I finally managed to find the love of my life, and we are now married. We are each other's first real relationship. I regret all my stupidity from the past, but how as it stands, I am 31 years old and barely leave the house. Now I just collect disability.

My girlfriend likes me for so many reasons. But I know for a fact initially she liked me because I have a good career. It was a deal breaker for her not meeting a guy with a good career. She also has a good career.

I guess I’m realising now that love just can’t be real as if I was some normal guy working an office job she wouldn’t have dated me. It’s all about the money with women.

It hurts when you realise that really if you didn’t have a good career (money) that your partner wouldn’t not be with you. It’s only something I’ve really focused on now.