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My male friend and I had a good relationship until a couple of months ago when he brought up the topic of how there's no unity between women and boys are always so united. I disagreed with him cause I had a different experience with my girlfriends. He was quick to retaliate with, "Oh you have no idea about the world.' I felt like he was offended and didn't want to push it further. I shifted the topic to being scared of horror movies, he said he wasn't and I complimented him for it. He then went on and on about how boys have to be strong-hearted cause their life's tougher than a woman and no matter how much of a feminist I become, this will always be a fact. I didn't even bother to argue on this but he just wouldn't let it go. After that the times I met him these are all that I experienced:

1. Pointing out my lack of experience in things, again.
2. Talking about my lack of skill regarding a language.
3. Mimicing my hand gestures in a mocking way.
4. Trying to scare me as prank and imply that I am a scared little baby. Basically treats me as if I am his junior.
6. If I say something good about myself gives me the glare and questions it.
7. Tried to delete my YouTube app off of my phone because my screen time was 2hr 7m long on a weekend.
8. Would make a big deal if I make a mistake and needs to say it to everyone so they are pissed with me.
9. Would help someone else out with their lack of skill in something but wouldn't help me with the same and lets me be.

The weirdest thing of all is his desperation to prove that he is strong and I am weak. I don't get it, no one ever called him weak (in fact he's adored for being smart and efficient, I am the one who gets perceived as naive and immature) but lately it's like he's obsessed with me and belittling me every step of the way. What's worse is that I am the only one that gets targeted for all the flaws and fears the rest are have their shortcomings without judgement. What could be the reason for this bullying?

So, I'm quite sensitive when it comes to touch & my boyfriend of more than 2 years is more on the other end of the spectrum. When he's sober, we arrange this well & are both happy, except for the occasional reminder for him to not break my neck when bear hugging me.

I want to clarify, he is a very kind soul, just clumsy, so it's always good intentions from him! But sometimes he accidently hurts me, which annoys me if it's too frequent & that's case when he's drunk. The more drunk/drugged, the worse it gets, as you simply loose control over your body. He tries super hard to give me my space & be veeery careful touching me then, but it's just not working. I'm kind of conditioned at this point that when he comes close to me drunk, he'll likely step on my foot/squeeze me too hard/poke his nose in my eye/get his fingers stuck in my hair, so I tense up as soon as he comes near me in that state. The worst part is that he's especially vulnerable & affectionate when drunk, but I just have to defend my space & tell him off & he can tell I'm not fond of him, which hurts him a lot.

I tried to avoid his drunk/drugged persona (he knows all of this, we communicate about it), but I also don't wanna miss all fun evenings with our friends. Moreover, it's a part of him (which he does not want to give up in this part of his life) and so I sometimes want to be with him in that state too. But it often ends in him being hurt & in a bad mood the next day, trying to recover from the rejections of the previous night and then he's the one needing his space, so I can't hug or kiss him to show him affection then, or to say sorry.

I know the most obvious solution is for me to avoid him in that state. But I wonder if anyone else made such experiences & whether you think this makes us a bad match/myself kind of a bad girlfriend, at least for him, that I can't deal with this? It hurts me a lot to hurt him and I hate myself in those moments for being so mean, I just don't know another way.