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My ex and I went through a lot of fights. Regardless, we managed to make it work because of our strong emotions. Just before our breakup, it reached a point to where he was calling me names and bringing up my family, basically no respect left on his part & coming at me for little things like me saying “thanks” instead of “thank you.” I blew up on him eventually & mentally checked out. 1 day we got into a fight and he said he’d block me (something he does when he’s mad). I then accepted some requests from guys- i was really mad-on social media (didn’t message them and deleted them later. He found out and hell broke and also found platonic msgs between a male friend I’ve known for 5 years. Those msgs included funny memes. I stopped being friends w/ this guy for him. He asked to check my phone, I didn’t agree because he should trust me & wouldn’t want him to think it’s ok to check my phone whenever he feels the need in the future. We ended up breaking up. We kinda kept in touch though to reconcile. Weeks turned into months leading up to us meeting in person. As we were chatting, he told me his expectations which included he checks my phone, I agreed. Then he asks to see my male followers to ask how I know them. I told him some are friends (since HS) and he didn’t like that. He said he doesn’t like his girlfriend to have male friends & I should take off whoever he doesn’t like. I had a reaction and didn’t let him check my phone so ofc he had major issues. We never got back together but now we’re surfacing the relationship again he told me of the same expectations. I’m really conflicted and don’t know if getting back with given expectations are normal or not. Is getting back a good idea?

Even with no actual experience I still believe I fall under this category, I wonder if I need to manifest the law of attraction or something even though I do think that’s bs.

You know when you have a gut feeling? I’ve been on and off the dating apps for years, it’s come to the point where I’m not as interested & I swipe on matches/reply to msgs every few days. I’ve never had a real relationship, I saw someone for a few months maybe 5 years ago & something told me after I saw him that’d I’d be single for a long time. With him it felt like settling & I refuse to ever be with someone that made me feel like that again.

I had to use dating apps bc I’m not very friendly & I don’t get approached in person. I’m told I’m cute/attractive & I will say I have a very low sex drive (haven’t masturbated or had sex in 5 years). I don’t think this is a huge deal considering this isn’t something that will be an issue that early on, a guy can’t just look at my profile/see me in person & know that right off the bat.

I get matches (never been the issue) but it’s always: ghosting, fizzling out, lack of interest (can go both ways), feelings not reciprocated, just not a good match & some guys are just crazy. I just always have a gnawing feeling like guys aren’t attracted to me, I’d get told once in a while that some guy looked at me/found me cute but they never do anything about it. And I don’t either hence why I’m posting this

TLDR: based off the description, is this something that’s unlucky in love?