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I'm in a loving relationship. No friends unless you're sister counts and person you barely text counts. I have a part time job that gives me like 8 to 12 hours a week. No pets and in a two bedroom apartment.

My boyfriend loves doing his projects they take up all his time and I'm glad that he has something he loves to do. I do as well. I love video games, art, watching shows, listening to books and crocheting. But I never feel like I get enough attention from him. Even if we spend the whole weekend together and he doesn't do his projects. Like I get all of his attention.

But somehow I just feel like anytime I spend with him, isn't enough even if we spent the 24/7 together. I know I shouldn't feel this way. But I don't know how to not feel this way. I keep myself as busy as possible. But nothing is ever enough. How can I feel like it's enough?

I have tried to make friends but it's so hard to do and then I feel like all the friends I have ever had just leave me. Should we get a pet so I can focus on something else besides him? Or just deal with it? Or do something else that will make it feel like enough?

Please help. I cannot afford a therapist so I come to you guys.

Sooo just watched a little video of a game that wasn't a horror story but one where a soldier gets mentally fked up as he forgets that he was there to save folks, not kill them... but he accidentally killed them. :c Just following the orders of another "important soldier" that turned out to have been long dead. (guy was talking to a ghost and seemed to wanted to blame it on this ghost of why all these folks were dead).

But this also sparks the memory of how I witnessed a few privates collecting water from a rainpool in the grass... and putting it down the drain with a bucket. As well as a man who drilled a nice fine whole in metal... then sealed with fresh metal. So for those who are in the army (AND I MEAN JUST THE ARMY, THAT'S THE ONE WE'RE TALKING ABOUT) is that why folks come home... just not there in the head? Because they're taught to follow orders and when they can't, they're discharged or worse?

Yeah, i probably ain't making much sense of this but... i feel like i dodged a bullet.