What's the saddest thing you've ever felt or in your life?

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Apulu_3 · Accepted Answer

I clearly remember that in 19 January 2021 my mom scolded me VERY badly because I was acting very cold. I didn't interacted with my family, I was eating less and becoming skinny, I didn't do anything rather than playing piano, study and watching TV and I was acting like a stranger living with them. All because I knew that I couldn't live the life I want. I was in a depression because my mom want, actually need me to be a politician or do any prestigious government jobs but that's not what I want to do. Before 19 January also I said Mom that I can't become what she wants me to be but instead my mom influenced me, again. So this 19 January I said it all that it hurts me when I know my future isn't in my hand but it really depends on the reputation and status of my family. What is so wrong in music that she hates me become a musician so badly? After all the conflicting feelings and tears coming out from me I felt pretty light because I at least released how I feel. My mom said me at last, "Ok do whatever you want to do". Literally I was the happiest girl that time! I remembered this date 19 January 2021 as the best day ever in my life. I changed so drastically in 2 days as if depression never existed in me. My mood level was fully top and there wasn't a moment when my smile, true smile left my face. I remembered this date 19 January 2021 as the best day ever in my life. But who knew that this date will be something I'm regretting to remember now. After one week my Mom said that we need to talk. I thought that she will talk about my music career and I happily said yes but she... Manipulated me. She showed me her tears and told that how much my family except from a gem like me, how much hopes they have for me that I will become a respectful and successful lady in future. And again I couldn't say anything against her. If she behaves like this then what can I even say? Even if she agrees then it will be for short term. I just didn't spoke anything and just felt myself getting engulfed by the fingers of darkness again. Yet again my 2 years old partner, depression came to cuddle with me but it bought it's brother too, and his brother was suicidal thoughts. The saddest thing was that I realized that I'm not a human, just a doll that everyone wants to play with. According to my mom one should be completely open minded and anyone can do anything. If they don't have interest in something they can 'create' interest for it. Other saddest thing is that recently I realized my dad from whom I always had hopes attached this all time also believes in the same thing. After 19 January I don't even bother to bring up this topic to Mom and fake a smile all the way long so she won't suspect me. However I'm working on my dreams now and my depression isn't bad like before.

whereismyjohnny · Accepted Answer

When my favourite aunt died (it took me 2 years to get over it, I used to think of her almost every day and I'd often cry because of that, especially when I would hear this song that reminded me of her).

Also, when my cat died. We really loved each other, my mum joked about us being like Gargamel and Azrael because he would follow me everywhere. Dad used to laugh and say he is so spoiled and like a puppy (also because of the following around thing). What hurt me the most, is the fact I was at Uni when that happened. I came home for the weekend and was looking for my cats when my mum told me she has to let me know something and I immediately knew something happened to one of my cats. I cried for days, and just seeing his things around (brush, favourite food...) and memories would make me break down. I still often think of him, especially when I play with my other cat. Ngl, I'm still not over it and I cry when I think about it.

HighlyVolatile · Accepted Answer

Broken heart in my early 20s. My fiancée broke the engagement just a week before marriage after I had already paid for almost everything, celebrated just days before with my friends and colleagues that I was about to be married, and then she got cold feet and broke up with me. I was so devastated. I threw the expensive wedding ring I bought her into a river on a sad impulse: about half a year's salary thrown down the drain.

I had some women ask me what I did to cause the breakup on here, like if I hit her or something like that. Not even close! I would never lay a finger on someone I love, and I might even be slightly sexist because I can't ever imagine laying a finger on a woman. I wasn't the maturest and made my mistakes but she was diagnosed as bipolar as well as anemic, prone to both terrible mental and physical stress. But I loved her good moments, and I fell in love with the idea that I was the only one who could take care of her which she encouraged left and right.

After she broke things off over the dumbest argument where I was jetlagged (just came back from a business trip from the US back to Japan) and snapped and stopped trying to deescalate just one time in our entire relationship, she broke it off. She said she doesn't know who I am and doesn't think she marry me anymore, and that's in spite of her being the first to say things like how she'll always be at my side even if I became a cripple in the hospital.

Then I felt like I was left with nothing. I had things that might have even made so many people call me lucky like with my career left, but all I ever wanted at that moment was her. Nothing else mattered to me. I would climb the tallest mountain, kill everyone, to have her but that didn't matter. She was done.

So a weird thing happened. Aside from being so sad, the world changed for a while. Like I'm a very empathetic person or what some call "empath" so I feel other people's "energies" -- you might say -- when I'm around people. Yet that shut off completely. Everyone around me seemed like a robot, even my best friends and family. I felt nothing, I couldn't care if they lived or died. Nothing and no one mattered to me for a very long time, like the world turned black and white.

It took a long time of making a very conscious effort to diagnose and fix myself to make the world return to color, so to speak, where I was able to feel connected to people again and not just see them as robots who might as well die tomorrow. It was during this stage also that I picked up my binge drinking habits (I did not drink at all with that ex) which I'm still struggling with now.

Mantinziza · Accepted Answer

more like a chain of events for me, dad died in 2017, half brothers stole my inheritance after wards, fucking assholes. Then my uncle in 2019, at least he got to see my daughter before passing. Then my better half left me in 2020, and I've been through 4 jobs in 1 year. And a lot of other bullshit in between, im still hanging in but not without the aid of drinkin. the worst part is, I saw it all coming, and its freakin me out cause now i just see me dieing old and alone. Everything else i predicted came true, so im gettin the sense thats gonna happen to.

Sour-rose · Answer

Can you imagine heading to work for 8 hours of the day, and you coming home? Home is about an hour and 48 minutes away and this giant block up holds you up for 5 hours. You tired, can't see wtf is the hold up, you're going to other people and conversatin' because whaddya gonna do, sit in your car with no charger? But eventually, you get to go home, and don't know wtf happened.

How the hell do you feel when you see on the news the reason you were held up because someone crossed into incoming traffic and people got killed but you survived but it could have been you.

exitseven · Answer

I was going through a really rough time. I just became unemployed. I was training for another career and I was struggling with that. I was really frightened about the future. Then out of the blue my father died. It was a total shock since he was not very old.

call_me_scar · Answer

Probably any one of times I break down feeling like I'll never find a partner wondering why is it I'm still alone is it my personality or lack thereof am I to boring, to odd, am I crazy and just can't recognize it, what am I doing wrong and just the feeling of not being good enough

UniquelyBasic · Answer

My dog being taken to be euthanized. I cried for weeks after.

imfreeze95 · Answer

I’m always sad often without knowing why I’m kind of dead inside I feel like I have no connection with people on any emotional level

GoodGuyBreakingBad · Answer

Seeing my grandma going downhill from Alzheimer's disease

InvoluntaryCelibate9 · Answer

Being unnatracrtive and being rejected a million times

little_rose · Answer

My granny was once very ill and I thought she would pass away. I was extremely sad.

Anonymous · Answer

The first time I realized nobody really wanted me around. Kind of used to it now

OddBeMe · Answer

Had to put down my childhood dog. Cried like a baby.

Passion_Devil · Answer

To see family break apart with nothing to stop it

JuanVeIasco · Answer

Losing my dog, the love of my life.

Pterodon · Answer

Having to put down my dog

Xefer · Answer

My life itself

Guardian45 · Answer

When my BFF died.

Anonymous · Answer

Depression.

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