I feel like a terrible person? Now it feels like my life is in ruins?

[Anonymous]

I blew up and lashed out against some people. Lost some friends because of those actions, and also have to deal with some legal problems now. My life is totally upside down, and I have no one to lean on anymore.

Not sure what to do anymore.

[TonyV]

Well it sounds like you where a terrible person, yeah those friendships are gone, burnt those bridges, and you'll most likely have a criminal record forever.

Shit happens, some reasons are learned the hard way just make sure you LEARN THE LESSON.

We've all done something that we're ashamed off, something we look back on and in hindsight can't believe we ever thought was ok. All you can do is take the punishment, try ro dig deep and figure out why you acted that way so you can not only avoid doing the think again but learn to avoid the trigger as well.

[Iron_Man]

What exactly did you say were you yelling? Did you break anything? Did you pound something? Did you threaten anybody? Did you throw your fist around? I need to know the circumstances to let you know what degrees of what happened I don’t understand why you would be losing friends. It depends what kind of temperament and what did you do with on your episode meltdown

[Asker]

It was bad enough to involve police, and it was a misdemeanor. It involved threats, and property damage.

[Iron_Man]

I didn’t realize that I’m sorry to hear that we live and learn

[Asker]

It was a terrible few months. I recognize now that my mental health was on decline. For example, I was fearful and paranoid of people, and assumed they were out to get me. Some of my thoughts were really strange, and involved the person I threatened.
There was an event, where one of her friends threatened to hurt me, and I assumed she set me up.
So, I threatened her, said some nasty things, and damaged her property. I was arrested, and now am dealing with the consequences.

It has been a while, just trying to rebuild my life now.
Not really sure what to do, outside of what I am already doing. I have sought help, and am working on myself. Of course, I will suffer the legal consequences for those actions

Just not sure where to take my life from here.

[Iron_Man]

Go to church and have a personal relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ and get involved with the church people

[Asker]

Now that I am slowly recovering from it months later..
Just seems like a sad waste.

[Iron_Man]

Well we live and learn things happen we’re not perfect. We just have to do the best that we can.

[exitseven]

Just another Saturday night.

[CriticalCatDad]

Get a counselor/therapist