Is it always due to trauma when people like me would find super disgusting shit "humorous" and "funny"?

[stalk-stopper]

PLEASE HELP SUCH PEOPLE. I FORGOT HOW NOT TO COPE WITH WHAT I SAW SO I MADE FUN OF IT. BEING TOLD "SEEK HELP" FELT INSULTING BECAUSE IN THE PAST, WHEN I SOUGHT HELP IT WAS DENIED.

YES

No

[strateguy632]

no. you have a different sense of humor. not sadist.

[stalk-stopper]

The exact opposite. I was always ultra sensitive about shit. Brought up conservative but i am on the extreme end "never hit children" and i intervene whenever i see children being spanked. I get mini panic attacks from it.

Hey, i also always wondered if it is nornal to impulsively wonder about physics of the fastest way to escape whatever room i am in.

Today i know why the idea of finding the fastest escape route clouded my mind 24 hours of the day unless i concentrate on something else.

I am traumatized as hell. I don't know of anyone as traumatized. And? I am cognitively functional. When i do awful shit, there is always an excuse that i think is the true reason, if there isn't then i manufacture a reason, and it is 100% from childhood trauma, STOP MINIMIZING THE USE OF THIS TERM, IT IS VERY FUCKING SERIOUS, NEVER LAUGH AT ANY PERSON IF YOU EVER HEAR THEM EVEN SAY THE WORD CHILDHOOD TRAUMA.

[stalk-stopper]

Do you ever shake in fear? I thought only weak people do that. For the first time in life i have been shaking off fear this morning.