Why is Pickleball so hard to get the hang of?

I took a beginner course and joined a starter league, it’s been 4 weeks and I am the worst player! I was told it’s an easy to learn sport and not too strenuous but it’s hard for me.
I have trouble remembering the rules as I play especially the two bounce rule, and I either hit the ball too gently or too hard out of bounds. I never know to hit the ball when it’s in the middle of the court or let my teammate hit it. We collide or both miss the ball because of my confusion. I thought maybe it’s hard for everyone, but all the other new players picked up the games rules our first night. Out of 45 players I am 45th place with 0 wins (the only one with 0 wins). I feel humiliation instead of having fun. Nobody will practice with me at the park either which isn’t helping.

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I tried watching videos over and over and they don’t help. I only remember playing in person not watching others
Why is Pickleball so hard to get the hang of?
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