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I feel like I have backslided badly. Of course, this most certainly isn't the first time. I have built myself up numerous times to be knocked down to my knees.

More concerning, this time I am engaged to be married.

I have a multitude of different mental illnesses and developmental disabilities. I have been hospitalized involuntarily countless times. Although I am socio-emotionally retarded, I am very knowledgeable, skilled, and talented in a wide array of career-oriented hard skills. From previous healthcare experience to having a strong software developer skillset, I feel I am capable of making a difference and being successful. At 30, I can say I have both saved lives and worked on projects for multi-billion dollar companies. That is not just a measly milestone.

As it stands today, I am broke, rely on the benevolence of others, live at home, and sit alone at the house in self-pity. My fiance hasn't moved in with me yet full time.

My doctor has referred me to a specialized medical facility due to being such a complicated case. I am awaiting a call.

I struggled with severe mental illness and developmental/maturity delays all throughout my life, even well into my 20s. I didn't get my first real, serious girlfriend until age 29, whom I am now engaged to. Now at 30, I realize my life up to this point has been very turbulent. I have a high school diploma, but lack a degree. My most recent roles have been in tech, but I was fired back in July of last year and haven't recovered in my career since. Yet, the tech landscape has changed so drastically these past 4-5 years that my once high-in-demand skills are becoming the skills of yesterday.

Where it stands today, I continue to collect disability checks and Medicare while I move back to my mom's house in search of my next career move. Fortunately, I have my own living space at my mom's house so it doesn't become awkward for my fiance.