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Normally you can say just move on.
But this girl. We were so compatible on paper, chemistry was on fire and she was very very beautiful. She expressed interest in getting married to me.

Then we argue for a couple weeks and she gets this bad feeling, said I didn’t make her feel special. She spoke for like 1.5 hours about why she didn’t want to be with me.

It hurts as I loved her and thought she would never leave me as I was good to her and I am very blessed. Obviously I will try and improve myself and move on. But damn the hurt of this cuts deep as it was so sudden going from hot to cold.

We were only together for 4 months but used to meet each other so much.

Not the surface description of east orthodox "joyful sorrow" of standing at the cross willingly. But detached from theology. We all have heard that pleasure and pain are two sides of the same human experience. It is my assumption that 100% everyone here took it the opposite way than mystics and poets ever intended.

Those who chase the laughter, get used to laughter, then eventually reach for pain to laugh at because jokes aren't a strong enough substrate anymore. Laughing is like catch and release fishing, find the target and then the laughter is coughing out all feelings. When offended or ashamed, an ordinary troll will find something to laugh at. Even his own pain. Just to restore the comfortable hollowness. Then there is psychosis where people can't stop laughing at what is sad.

If you strengthen your sorrow muscle, you chase that which requires empathy. You then grow your soul to accommodate all the sorrow. And soon you blur the lines between pleasure and pain. You step into the opposite territory and still use the same mourn muscle as a means of appreciating jokes. Instead of coughing everything out, you absorb and digest what's supposed to be funny.

Pain? Pleasure? Doesn't matter. Certainly fewer people get offended if you digest their jokes (don't laugh at what is funny) than if you spit on their wounds (laugh at the unfunny). And you certainly don't unconsciously project onto others your own shadow that you run away from if you embrace it with all the sorrow necessary. And as opposed to seeking a stronger stimulus just to feel alive, weaker and weaker stimuli work just as well to make you feel alive. Willingly enduring sorrow, emotionally, not physically or mentally, is a prerequisite to being able to feel joy.

Can a woman really promise commitment to you? My experience is that only are loyal to how they feel in any one time.