Got back together with my ex but it doesn't feel the same anymore?

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I feel like crap. We were together for 3 years and 4 months ago he broke up with me because he couldn't do the distance anymore. We tried to close it but it got posponed. It was a total shock to me and I never felt that sad. I tried convincing him to wait a little bit more, to give me a chance to try harder in finding a job there, but he was done. And as he said it it was basically the decision made over night.
We never faught. I loved him so much, every single day. For me it was a honey moon stage every day. It was same for him. I thought we were invincible. I had relationships before but this one was my first true love definatelly. Until he decided to call it quits. For 4 months I've been crying and wanting him back. We didn't end on bad terms so we stayed in touch. Maybe that was the mistake because we would start fighting over things that are not our business anymore, we were both jealous. I gave up eventually and made piece with the fact that he is not mine anymore and that I need to move on. That we will never get back together. After a month or so, I started doing better, I got my life on track and I even started liking someone new. But I still missed him. Then we slowly started talking more often and it was very good I was so happy. I realized that I could probably be friends with him. He then said that he made a mistake and that he was aware of that few days after the breakup but that he couldn't deal with what he did. Long story short, I got my feelings for him back for awhile and I was willing to give it another chance. Since then he has been great to me, he made a lot of effort and he seems like he really was sorry. But me on the other hand... I lost it. The feelings disappeared. I no longer could look at him the same and I don't know why. I am just not excited anymore. It's not that he bothers me but I'm just meeh about everything. And I still kindf of like the other guy. I feel so guilty. What should I do? Will feelings come back?
Got back together with my ex but it doesn't feel the same anymore?
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