My ex broke up with me almost year ago. He’s seems conflicted about the break up since it happened. But doesn’t seem to “know what he wants” I never reach out to him. I’ve even moved couple hours away. He’s not left me alone even if I block him. (Long story short) I’ve seen him multiple times and latest I was at his house. Keep in mind he’s totally different sober vs drunk. When he’s drunk he’s lovey and seems to miss me an want to be close. Opposite when sober. It was like this in our relationship. Irritable when sober and annoyed at me, doesn’t want me to touch him. Well I was at his house last week and I showed up drunk (he asked me to come multiple times) he was sober. It ended up in an altercation. I have it recorded and he was annoyed at me saying I was staring at him and I started crying and he was like stop fucking crying you’re gonna make me more annoyed. Then told me to get the fuck out. I was calm during the recording. But I remember after I got so mad an pushed him and screamed at him. He made me go home and basically pushed me out the door. He left in his car and asked if I got home safe and we went back and forth and I told him I hated him and to leave me alone bc I’m sick of his back and forth. There was more but this is just a summary. Neither of us has contacted the other and it’s been a week. I don’t know if I should apologize or not. He obv should’ve never sent me home drunk and he was being very mean in the recording but I know I got very very upset after and was nasty too. I don’t know what to do. Maybe it’s for the best? He’s hurt me for a year now by not leaving me alone and letting me heal (yes I take responsibility for allowing it) and has never said sorry. I just don’t know what to do. One of his texts said “I don’t hate you but I cannot believe you. You made me not want to even sleep at my house tonight" his ex before me was so toxic & now afraid he thinks same of me :( im just hurt
Should I say sorry to him?
