I've been with my child's farther for about 2 years a lot has happend and there's a lot of water under the bridge I found out I had a brain tumour when I was with my ex so we have been though so much we use to argue and he would say its toxic even if the argument never got heated he has split with me numerous times
I've never split up with him I have another child who's 5 from a previous relationship so it's deep my son I've got to my current latest relationship is 4 months old but I need help my ex when he comes we show love to one another sleep together sometimes kiss hug cuddle and act like where together then when he leaves we don't speak he is very money orientated and I've mentioned that he will loose things if he just cares about money
I mean someti he dosent even see his kid for weeks and weeks and weeks he wasn't there at the birth I love my ex a lot so it's hard recently I talked about re locating we have been split for about 3 months but had sex a lot since I keep thinking it's going to end up back in a relationship but we live in diffrent city's now as he works away about 2h drive from my house
I don't know how to propose a future with him or if to just let it go I've tried speaking to others but I don't want them because they aren't him they don't make me feel like he dose and under my circumstances with a tumour and two kids it's hard for a man to accept us so tonight he's at my house and he fell asleep his phone went off about 5 times snapchat numerous girls names and I was shaking I felt like getting his finger to unlock the phone but then I felt like I couldn't I couldn't invade his privacy or hurt myself like that I don't know if to bare with him or let it go
I just don't want anyone else I've got a kid to him and been though a lot with him but I feel like I've gave him a child and he's still speaking to other women? What will it take? To make him realise? Am I not good enough? I'm very vocal but when I mention something he is defensive