I don’t understand why guys think they always make the first move. In my experience, I always had to be the one to talk to them first. And now that I’m older, I’m just the friend. I’m not the one that goes on dates or a potential life partner. The lack of attention from males is making me feel less like a woman. I don’t really know how to describe it, but it’s like when my students call me Ms. so and so, I cringe because I’d rather just go by my first name. The female label of ‘Ms.’ has now become uncomfortable because I don’t feel like I’ve done enough in my life to be a real woman other than being born with female reproductive parts. Or dresses that I once thought were beautiful just don’t seem like they were made for me, that I don’t belong in them. But I’m not gay or neutral. I want a guy. And I want kids. I’m just not understanding what about me is so unattractive to the opposite sex. It used to be that I felt just not pretty but now I feel less feminine, too.