There is this woman that I met in June through mutual friends and went to four great dates with in the course of a month or so. I mean even from the first one i was amazed at how much in common we have as characters and how intimate we were with each other. We got to know each other better by talking about all kinds of stuff and had some really great make out sessions as well.
Two weeks went by without seeing other and only communicating via phone or texting. We were a bit unlucky there because all kinds of stuff happened during those two weeks. Work schedule changes for both of us, COVID for her etc. And then she told me that she wouldn't be able to enter into a relationship because of all the crazy stuff that was happening in her life regarding her work. I confessed my feelings for her and said that I was willing to give us some time and maybe we could work it out. Unfortunately she talked about this whole situation between us being one-sided from my side and we got into a no contact period until i could get my feelings right and maybe see her as a friend.
After two weeks of no contact she called me on my birthday to wish me and we had a short chat. Honestly i felt so happy and refreshed that i talked to her and got to know how she was doing. About two days later i invited her out to treat her for my birthday and she accepted! We talked about the time and place we would go but then an emergency happened in her job and we had to cancel. Finally after four days we had a chat over text and long story short, we are back into a no contact period. She basically said that it seems that we are not meant to be together and that i can contact her again if I am more relaxed about this because communication right now doesn't do us any good.
I'm unable to get over my feelings for her. The worst part is that i've started to feel jealous. I keep thinking that there may be another one who hugs and kisses her like i did and that tears me apart.
