What’s it like to think you’ll always be alone and unpartnerable?

[Soimesady]

I have so many facets to me

i change all the time

i know marriage is right

hut I never had a serious relationship

I’ve attempted to but

in reality

I don't know if I can even find anyone that would fit me

im very unique

and for the first time i can feel it

That’s how I feel

I don’t relate to that

Other

[Oncewildtwiceburned]

I wish I didn’t like being alone so much there’s a woman who loves me but she drives me crazy half the time and the other half I feel like I don’t deserve her. Thank God I have to work far away sometimes, for some introspection and defragmentation

[Soimesady]

lol. Howd you end up with her then

[Oncewildtwiceburned]

I thought I needed a woman, I have the libido of a 21 year old, she is beautiful. It was want not need, I desire a family, of which she cannot give me but she is so thoughtful and has a big heart, I don’t know what to do ATM

[Oncewildtwiceburned]

I think when you truly live someone the want is more gentle and superseded by the need. Want becomes slimy and disgusting the need overruns it and it feels pure and natural like breathing air and smiling without noticing it when you think of her or see her.

[Soimesady]

You sound confused Maybe you can have a big heart for her as she does for you. And mesh your hearts together.

[Soimesady]

Cool. Hope you makes a Decision!

[Oncewildtwiceburned]

In my mind there is a love triangle me, her, my desire to live like Sméagol in the wilderness on my farm alone with my self-pity and unrequited love I deny myself out of punishment.

Or is it her, me, and someone else?

[Киттйлинк]

Is your name Andrei?

[luvstoned4him]

Its tough some days especially when you see all your school and college mates getting married but don't lose hope, your person is out there..

I used to believe that if I wait they would just land at my door step but I think we need a litter nudge

Go out sometimes, have a solo date, start some hobbies, volunteer, go on trips

That's what am doing currently and I've ran into some interesting men. We weren't compatible but I haven't given up. Its encouraging

[Booniesss]

Cool. Are u a loner too

[luvstoned4him]

@Booniesss most definitely

[Nikki1989]

I always had this certainty that I would eventually be married and incredibly happy. I just had to wait for it.

[DextroShade]

At your age it is very unlikely you will be able to ever get a man to take you seriously because you have no relationship skills and likely have a high body count. You are a risk that a guy who has something to lose won't take. You could in theory still secure commitment, but it will be from a guy who is shorter than 6 ft, has a dad bod, doesn't make six figures, and is significantly older than you.

[Juxtapose]

Oh you have no fucking idea. I am autistic and all of you fucks are so alien to me it is unbelievable. But I put on a smile and act like everything is okay while you insane fuck wads destroy the world around me with your illogical nonsense.

I feel like I am surrounded by crazy aliens all the time. Neurotypicals really can't appreciate that the same way I can.

[Jltakk]

I've grown used to it, sort of numb to it even. I've just accepted that I never lived life like everyone else and thus I'm behind on a social development level. Mental illness and SLD doesn't help matters either. Then there's the fact that I'll never be able to move out like I wanted, which was always my primary goal before even thinking about women.

[Bilyelash]

I’m also behind on social development. I want a boyfriend but I have lost hope it’s just some fantasy at this ooint

[Goahead76]

@Bilyelash. What do you mean or why do you say behind on social development? Do you avoid social settings, or how does that happen?

[Bilyelash]

@Goahead76 yeah.

[ChiTown33]

Alone? I wouldn't know. I got too many people who care about me to ever feel alone for very long. Maybe you mean "single".

Unpartnerable? No.

[Iron_Man]

It’s horrible no life

[Batsy01010101]

Better to be alone than hurt by anyone

[Ladsin2]

No idea.