Should I still try to go back to college when im well aware that im genuinely dumb?

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I told myself more than a year ago that i was just gonna skip a semester, but i haven't gone back since. I really dont want to but i know i have to and i always think about it. Yes i hate taking classes, but even when i try to do good, i still can't succeed. I failed some classes. I was embarrassed and I've been delaying doing it again.

I also know if i dont graduate i have nowhere to go. I dont have any skills especially those decent jobs that dont require a degree. At least with a degree i have something to offer? I dont even know what i wanna do career wise but im willing to take any major that seems logical.

Anyway I've been seriously considering going back. Im 22 already. My friends are all doing great. Graduating, getting good jobs (i work in a restaurant), getting their second degrees, getting their own place, etc. meanwhile im still the same person i was when i was 18. Got nothing else achieved since finishing high school.

I know if i decide to go for it again, i have to be all in. I wanna be. I just dont know if im capable.

I don't know.. i might just be venting because everything feels heavy. I have a boyfriend and he’s doing great, he’s stable, knows what he wants. I can't talk to him about it because im ashamed.
Should I still try to go back to college when im well aware that im genuinely dumb?
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