Did you ever have a phase where you felt 'dumber'?

[Apulu_backagain]

Like out of a sudden you feel like you have lost your earlier attributes, became weak in what you were once strongest at, struggling to understand what you used to love learning.

I think I'm going through that phase now, I hope it's just a phase and nothing long lasting. I was a piano prodigy and now because of so busy high school I lost my piano skills and my chess rating in chess. com went from around 1000 to around 300. And I struggle to understand my physics chapters no matter how much I grind myself. I never felt so dumb after getting mental glow up. And I used to be a deep thinker and nice poet but now even my English sucks.

What was you dumbest phase and how did you brought yourself out of that zone?

[Maybe_Maybe_not]

Yep, and it's similar to what you describe, this perception of losing grounds on thinking power and arts. I think many people could describe a depressive phase in such terms, the ones you used. For people used (or forced, vaster topic) to rely on intellectual performance at least.

I believe you can't cease to be a deep thinker because the calling would be too strong to resist. However, you can be emotionally down, or mentally exhausted, for a vast number of hypothetical reasons. That's common for people investing a lot in intellectual matters, they tend to forget caring about other aspects of their life, specifically the emotional part, which ensures their personal balance. That said, you're super super young, so hormones might play against you, for a time. And overall, you're in the middle of your development, which means you're undergoing the bumpy road, it's inevitable, that's just how it is, for youngsters :)

[Apulu_backagain]

Growing up sucks, but at the same time I don't want to be a grown up too. Because you need to be actually grown up if you grow up, does that make sense?

[Maybe_Maybe_not]

I remember, I did think it sucked to be a grown up. At 16 and probably until 19/20, I thought grown ups were boring, uninteresting and outlandish. I feared becoming like them. That was what I saw, subjectively, I don't know what you see, what you associate with grown ups, because it's personal.

Did I need to be grown up to grow up? No
It's the events I lived that made me growing up, but that's only RETROSPECTIVELY. When each event came, when I experienced them, I never felt like growing up. I can only look back, after the events, even long after the events and say: It made me growing up.

[Apulu_backagain]

That's poetic, I love your influencing perspective. Makes perfect sense.

[Effably]

I had a quarrel with a bit of burnout at some point and did experience a noticable cognitive decline. It was maddening mostly because it was so obvious to me but not to anyone else.

In your case it mostly sounds like stress. A relaxed walk a day might be the type of cure you need.

[Apulu_backagain]

I know right, other people still assume that you're that capable and they have few expectations from you but then you feel stupid because you can't meet those expectations.

In my case, I ruined myself with procrastination and lot of zoning out and overconfidence too. Like there was a time I felt really tired but at the end of the day I got less job done. I'm recovering from that.

[AI Opinion]

Feeling like you've lost your spark is entirely normal, and it often happens when life gets overwhelming. I experienced a similar phase during a particularly hectic time. I found solace in re-engaging with my passions, even in small doses, and surrounded myself with supportive communities. Dedicating time to what I loved gradually brought back my confidence and skills. Remember to be kind to yourself; these phases are just temporary, and you’ll bounce back with your unique talents intact! 🌟 Keep pushing through!

[Apulu_backagain]

Learn from my chat gpt.

[exitseven]

I thought that I was a lot dumber than most of the other kids I went to college with. I always struggled with exams and just barely got passing grades and sometimes I did not. I studied my ass off and I sweated over grades the whole time. the thing that made it go away was graduating/ I just barely squeaked by and for a while it looked like I was not going to make it but once I had that piece of paper I really didn;t care about it anymore.

[Apulu_backagain]

That sounds so scary

[exitseven]

@apulu_backagain I literally was one exam away from getting kicked out the whole time i was there. Somehow i brute forced my way through it.

[Apulu_backagain]

The same thing kind of happened to me in 11th grade, I almost got a detention (repeating the grade again). That kind of stuff scares me a lot,

[ChicoFromThe305]

Yea, it could've been worse tho, I could've actually been dumb

[Apulu_backagain]

You ask the most innovative questions on here, you're the least dumb guy.

But seriously, how?

[ChicoFromThe305]

Thanks, I guess my brain just be braining and creating new questions for the site 😂

[Apulu_backagain]

Random opinion but you can be a great stand up comedian if you have the right comic voice.

[ChicoFromThe305]

Thanks but I didn't know being a comedian had a requirement on vocal cord frequencies, so how does one have a comic voice? 💀

[Apulu_backagain]

Do you have that kind of laugh, such that if you laugh then it makes everyone else laugh too? Is your smile contagious too and is your voice expressive and can deliver sarcasm in such a way that people can separate your sarcasm from true criticism?

Can you do that straight npc face while cracking down the most unexpected joke and not laugh at it yourself?

If yes, then you have a comic voice. I remember being interested in stand up comedy myself so I was studying comedians and their tones and if you pay some attention to the way they speak then you'll recognise they have a really inviting and friendly tone. Which makes you feel like you're meeting and old friend.

[ChicoFromThe305]

Then maybe comedy is not much my thing, I prefer the mystery, where you say something and don't know if someone will laugh or take it the wrong way, that's what's best about dark humor but of course one always hopes it's taken the proper way or you gonna get haters but why did you stop chasing that dream? 🙂

[Apulu_backagain]

Because usually females don't do well in that field, I guess the right men just have that comic tone. And if we talk about dreams, I have way too many. If I chase them all at once then I might just skip touching grass. I'm more focused in academics now and then maybe during college I'll give myself the freedom to engage in my hobbies.

But I'm really proud of one joke I made. Basically vegetarian guy in my class in 9th grade was accusing me of be cruel to kill animals and eat meat. And that the idea of me having pet animals is pretty ironic.

I replied, in a rather sinister tone, "I love animals, alive and dead".

And then recently once I was asking my math sir at school about how to improve my grades and stuff. And he said "You need to do math as religiously as reading The Gita-"

"But I'm Muslim"

I cut him off and he was just standing there, completely stunned and blanked out and so were other kids but after 3 seconds of silence everyone started laughing so loudly lol.

I guess I just like making people laugh and might be quite opposite to you, I have to make them laugh. The mystery makes me anxious lol.

[ChicoFromThe305]

Sounds more like savage moments, there's a difference between savage moments and jokes lol, savage moments are much cooler, that reminds us one of your many dreams still being an author or did that sail? Lol

[Apulu_backagain]

Oh definitely, I'm officially an author because I have a non fiction book under me in Amazon. com which I published back in 2024. I'll start to publish books under serious publications after being an adult. Because I was trying a publications back as a 13 year old and they scammed me and stole my poems.

[ChicoFromThe305]

Damn that's fucked up, they just took your shit? Can't trust nobody nowadays, that's good tho, glad to see you are moving on your author dreams, you are a teen author, quite the accomplishment

[Apulu_backagain]

I mean it was pretty shady too, I should have been more careful. This time I'll try to chase after those big publications like penguin and barnes and nobles or collins after I get certain fame.

[ChicoFromThe305]

Yes that's a much better path I'd say, might be more complicated to get their attention but I believe it will be far more worth it when you do, you can also digitally sell it yourself as well, mostly books, open an eBay or something and start selling your digital copies there, you'll most likely have to create a license and of course a copyright for it as well, but an idea.

[Apulu_backagain]

Yup, I'm considering self publishing strongly next time too.

[ChicoFromThe305]

Very cool indee👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[Cubus]

Only when entering new school, comparing myself to peers.

[Apulu_backagain]

Was it like that for college too?

[Cubus]

Yeah. But I stopped feeling bad, when Im not the best. Uou get used to.

[eagle1951]

yeah now

[Apulu_backagain]

Sir, judging your age you're probably the wisest person on here. What dumb phase?

[eagle1951]

believe me there are times when my brain doesn't work, and i can't remember things, or I do something, and then wonder why

[Apulu_backagain]

Oh those moments when you're suddenly clueless? I hate them myself

[eagle1951]

yeah it sucks