How do I stop myself from feeling self-conscious about my writing?

[Anonymous]

I am writing a story online (it's a fanfiction). I am posting it by the chapter. I put my heart and soul into writing the story. My last chapter I can't help but to feel really self conscious about it. I took a different route than what I originally planned for my ideas. I kind of made the storyline a little more complicated for me when writing it. It's a really emotional scene and I felt proud of it when I wrote it. But now I'm stressing out about it. I'm wondering if my character is coming off annoying I feel really weird about it because I'm writing a guys perspective and I want him to show emotion about the awful shit he's going through but I don't want him to come off annoying. It's really hard. How do I work on this stress I feel?

[tzdc21]

From one fellow writer to another, all that matters is what you want to type on the screen. You can't please everybody, so some people are not gonna like your story, that is inevitable. But there's gonna be a lot people who will like your story. Just go ahead and post it, don't overthink it. And down the road if you wanna change it, just go ahead and change it. No problem. But you have to write something because YOU want to write it, not because other want to read it.

[Asker]

I was thinking about spacing out the story a bit. What I originally planned was that one bad thing happens after another. But I was thinking I should try to show that my character is working to better himself he's grieving over his best friends death. I planned to write him not handling those emotions properly and spiraling out of control and kind of inadvertently taking it out on the ones that care about him. But then I took a pause in the middle of writing my fanfiction and I thought, what if he's coming off as this huge asshole that all the readers are going to hate. Like I don't want to make this character that everyone hates, I kind of want them to feel bad for him. So now I'm thinking maybe I should have him try to work on himself and show like that he's trying so then the readers won't find him annoying and then something bad happens to him which makes him relapse in a way.

[tzdc21]

I like that approach better. Because audiences love characters that they can relate to. And people can relate more to a bad thing happening, then some good things happening, and then another catastrophic thing occurs, as opposed to an onslaught of bad things one after the other, or as I like to call it, the Charlie Brown treatment.

[Asker]

I don't know if you mind answering another one of my questions? There are two people in my characters life. A lady that's his friend and an older man that's a father figure. I'm writing about the two of them worrying over my character because he's a hired gun and when he gets hurt he goes back to them for help because the older guy is a doctor and the woman is a nurse. I was wondering if that sounds annoying? I'm working an a emotional scene where this is the second time he's been hurt and he's having a heart too heart with the father figure doctor and he almost dies and when he comes to they're like hugging him and all afraid. I was wondering if all this affection, these emotions and caring for each other can get annoying? I like writing stories with a ton of raw emotion it's my specialty.

[tzdc21]

That's fine to have in there, but don't go overboard with it. And by that I mean don't make it occur in every other chapter of the story to the point where it has become the norm of that story.