The night they told me I was dying I didn't think I'd see my rescue kitten (there was only one at the time) again. One of the nurses said if things started going south real quick, she'd try to sneak her into my room if I could get someone to bring her to the hospital, so I could say goodbye. My mom and my then-fiancée were my only living family and my mom was far too far away to make it that night. I thought back to when she was a very tiny kitten with an oversized head and ears and she was so nervous the first time she crawled into my lap like "can I do this or will you be mad?" That was the moment I realized how much I loved her and I wanted her to have a better life. It made me sad to think if I died I didn't want her to think I wasn't coming around to play anymore because she played "wrong", or I didn't like her or something. She'd already been abandoned once and it nearly cost her her life. I went into V-tach over a dozen times that night. Most of them I was cognizant of. I remember trying so hard to push through and thinking of her and the tender moments we'd shared together. I was afraid if I died I'd disappoint her, because I always played with her the most, so I decided I didn't have time for that death shit and with all the people that failed to take me there before I wasn't going to break that stretch then.
I'm going to go boop her now I think.
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