I was always a tomboy growing up and didn't fit in with the popular girls. I was always into playing outdoors, making fairy houses, making movies with my big brother... it was an awesome childhood. And then in middle school through high school I made friends with girls who were similar but more girly.
I started dressing more feminine, still didn't really know how to dress myself but I tried. I started getting attention from boys that I hadn't gotten before. But all throughout, my best friends were guys. The guys I ended up dating were usually my best friends first, and then boyfriends later. To this day, I feel kind of anxious hanging out with girls and more at ease with guys. In college I wished I could get rid of my large breasts, I hated how they looked in the shirts I wore (and still feel that way).
I kept my hair a messy cut for years, and wore boyish clothes. I've never felt comfortable in tight dresses and heels, or with more than some super simple make-up. But now with longer hair and dressing "cuter" because I feel like that's what is acceptable for people who are looking to meet a partner, people have started looking my way again, and asking me out. But I feel fake.
Every day I feel less attractive I don't know if this is me sinking back into my childhood comforts and if its something I should move past, but I just wish there was a way I could dress in T-shirts, shorts, sneakers and no make-up, and still feel wanted and attractive. I feel like if I automatically look like a guy, or lesbian, nobody will give me a chance. I feel like there's something wrong with me
I started dressing more feminine, still didn't really know how to dress myself but I tried. I started getting attention from boys that I hadn't gotten before. But all throughout, my best friends were guys. The guys I ended up dating were usually my best friends first, and then boyfriends later. To this day, I feel kind of anxious hanging out with girls and more at ease with guys. In college I wished I could get rid of my large breasts, I hated how they looked in the shirts I wore (and still feel that way).
I kept my hair a messy cut for years, and wore boyish clothes. I've never felt comfortable in tight dresses and heels, or with more than some super simple make-up. But now with longer hair and dressing "cuter" because I feel like that's what is acceptable for people who are looking to meet a partner, people have started looking my way again, and asking me out. But I feel fake.
Every day I feel less attractive I don't know if this is me sinking back into my childhood comforts and if its something I should move past, but I just wish there was a way I could dress in T-shirts, shorts, sneakers and no make-up, and still feel wanted and attractive. I feel like if I automatically look like a guy, or lesbian, nobody will give me a chance. I feel like there's something wrong with me
