I don't care if I live or die?

[jmwvidz]

I've had family issues for most of most life and still hasn't been resolved. Is this a normal feeling? by the way I'm 17 years old.

[Curmudgeon]

It was a feeling for many of us. Hang in there, it gets - well, not necessarily better, but with time it does become *irrelevant*.

[jmwvidz]

Perhaps thank you

[Whislelowblow]

What kind of family issues? And was the turning point that led you into nihilistic depression?

[jmwvidz]

The major one is when I was a little kid my sister was about 11 or 12 when we moved into this house. I was about 4 or 5 and my sister started dating this prick across the road he was 18 years old and 12 years later they are on about getting married and they have 3 kids with each other. I fucking hate him and I would like to kill him. And I don't talk to my sister as I can't bring my self to talk to her while she is in this situation however I still care about her.

[Whislelowblow]

Is he abusive to her or the kids? If so it’s normal for you to be angry at him. I would be pissed too. But I think you really should try to let some of the anger go because physically hurting him isn’t a good idea. If you physically hurt him then he gets more power and gets to ruin your life because you’ll be in jail and he gets to be the victim that everyone feels bad for while you turn into the bad guy everyone hates. You want him to be the one in jail and your sister and his kids hating him. If he’s abusive of course. I’m not sure why you’re so angry at him though.

[jmwvidz]

He's just caused my family lots of shit and I don't know for sure if he lays his hands on them but I suspect he does

[Whislelowblow]

Damn, that’s fucked up. To answer your question, yeah it’s normal to hate someone that’s so shitty. But I don’t know why you don’t care about dying. You don’t think your niece and nephew will be sad that their uncle died? And what about your sister? she cares about you too.

[jmwvidz]

Tbh the niece and nephews wouldn't care as they don't know me. Also I don't think my sister give a flying fuck and me. It's put me in this depression for a long time and I can't escape it.

[Samariaz]

what are your issues?

[jmwvidz]

The major one is when I was a little kid my sister was about 11 or 12 when we moved into this house. I was about 4 or 5 and my sister started dating this prick across the road he was 18 years old and 12 years later they are on about getting married and they have 3 kids with each other. I fucking hate him and I would like to kill him. And I don't talk to my sister as I can't bring my self to talk to her while she is in this situation however I still care about her.