Are you jealous of your siblings? do you get forced spend holdiays with siblings?

I’m 24 and when I was 15-20 I would be forced by parents to see brother and be with his gfs now wife’s family all holidays. I would be black sheep dumb girl alone while everyone is with husband or boyfriend showing how happy they are in life. And I got depression as I would never have a man next to me so now at 24 I aviod holidays. My boyfriend don’t let me spend holdiays with his family at his house. He don’t care about holdiays just spends it seeing tv working and eating with mom & sister. My step siblings have perfect tucked got married at age 22 and have babies and home. I don't know y god give siblings happiness to marry and I’m 24 alone. I don't know y I deserve this. 😔 no one in family is my age. Everyone is now 35-37
Are you jealous of your siblings? do you get forced spend holdiays with siblings?
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