I'm lonely but I strongly dislike people, what should I do?

[Anonymous]

I currently am single and I think I should stay that way, but sometimes I wish I had a friend...
The problem is that I'm terrible at socializing, and people are annoying lol.
I have terrible social anxiety. I can barely talk to anyone in real life but online is okay. I haven't had a friend in years and I always assume that no one wants me in their life.
I was picked on really badly when I was a kid and it still affects me to this day.

[jahaims]

Go to therapy to work on yourself so you can function

[Asker]

I've been in therapy for many years

[jahaims]

Find a new therapist

[BarryLiverstone]

Have you tried to work on it? Made a goal to heal?

[Asker]

I don't know where to start

[BarryLiverstone]

Well if you know you have anxiety. Start with your doctor

[Asker]

Been seeing a doctor about it for years

[BarryLiverstone]

Right. And what’s your progress? How far along on your plan?

[Asker]

There is no plan and the progress has been minimal

[BarryLiverstone]

Hmm than that’s a bad doc. There should be a treatment plan even if minimal progress is being made. How do you feel about it?

[Asker]

There have been treatment plans in the past with different doctors. I feel pretty hopeless about it

[BarryLiverstone]

Oh no :(. Can’t give up hope already. You have lots of life ahead. What’s been the biggest challenge holding back progress?

[Asker]

Fear

[BarryLiverstone]

Here is an ugly secret they don’t teach us in school. Everyone is afraid. We just can’t admit it because we are supposed to be all cool and collected

[BarryLiverstone]

What’s your fear?

[Asker]

Being judged

[BarryLiverstone]

Ya that’s gotta come from your past trauma

[BarryLiverstone]

When you are judged how does that feel?

[Asker]

Awful. Makes me want to run from the situation

[BarryLiverstone]

I know how you feel

[888theGreat]

were a match

[lycanthrope3]

Get a dog

[Asker]

I've got a dog and two cats lol