Should I celebrate even though I don't think I have fully healed yet?

[Anonymous]

My birthday is coming up soon and it is also the same week I had my abortion 3 years ago now. I always thought my birthday was meh but after my abortion I have been dreading it ever since.

The only reason why I did it so close to my birthday was because I had no money and had to wait till I got paid and I knew if I left it any longer it would have been harder as I was nearly at 6 weeks at this point

The pandemic didn't help either obviously and I know I am not alone. I don't have any friends or money and I am not working rn. I've told my family that I don't want any presents or to do at all. My anxiety is very bad as well now. I just don't want to sit in myself but I don't want to celebrate either. Any ideas please?

[Guy13]

Perhaps, you should celebrate with a mental health professional?

[Asker]

I can't afford one plus my anxiety is too bad to actually call someone and talk to them. Thanks anyways

[micheal727jovanie]

Fuck what everybody thinks, I'd work on myself and celebrate by getting another job. Learn something new!