I only care about myself and my girlfriend, anyone else is just a number to me and if they die, it's just the cycle of life to me.
I acknowledge that what may have happened was bad but it rarely stays on my mind for more than a few seconds, if that at all. I hate spending time with family and I've stopped hanging out all together.
I intend to cut family out of my life completely upon starting my career, and I intend for my girlfriend to do the same as her family is a massive drain on her.
My parents really need to die, they've been alcoholic narcissistic pieces of shit for so long and they've been morbidly obese for decades. They're approaching their 60s, it's been time for them to die for a very long time and I for sure won't be attending their funerals as I'd rather spend time at home than waste it there.
I sometimes wonder if I have an issue in not caring for anyone else besides my girlfriend. I'm joining the police force and seek to join the crime suppression team to target rough areas that really need help. So I do have a desire to do good for the community I live in, but I also view them numerically, hoping to reduce victimization as much as I can, not letting one failure eclipse mounds of success.
