My mood swings and I (more importantly my wife) knows the signs and can talk me down. But I do consider it.
Is it common? some comedian said, “Everyday you’re alive you decided not to kill yourself.” Lol
My mood swings and I (more importantly my wife) knows the signs and can talk me down. But I do consider it.
Is it common? some comedian said, “Everyday you’re alive you decided not to kill yourself.” Lol
Not as much as I used to. I used to think about it every day. Only once in my life did I ever go so far as to start making preparations, but I've casually thought about it more times than I can count.
I still do think about it sometimes. Infrequently, but it's there on hard days. But I shake it off because I know I'm still needed. There's still a few people that depend on me. If I didn't have them, who knows? Maybe I'd already be gone. I couldn't honestly tell you.
I don't think it's all that unusual, though. To think about death or suicide. To feel so much that you'd rather feel nothing at all. To struggle to see a future worth living for. But there's still work to do and we can take that rest when we've earned it, yeah?
I did when I was under lot of relational stress. I have not since.
I would think these thoughts of yours are avoidance of painful feelings. So the question becomes, what are those painful, scary feelings about, where do they originate. Then try to find and resolve those, because they aren't doing you any good.
All these feelings are just communicators for some kind of change, your spirit /heart/mind knows something isn't right.
I used to have some materials that would help this. The bottom line is... your mind is processing a deep wound. I guess could be hormonal balanced/gland e. g. physical anomaly and you could check both avenues. And lastly environmental... like you are consuming things that your body sees as inflammation... you can lookup "leaky gut syndrome" or EMF sensitivity... like something that is triggering you physically. All 3 avenues could be explored.
The emotional part... start writing things down and get into discussions about yourself to explore childhood "emotionally impacting experiences" and traumas. Those things can sit there lurking inside and need to be resolved. If you believe in Bible, it says such issues can go back 3 generations... e. g. passed on from your ancestors. At minimum, since you were in he womb could have taken "emotional hits" based upon how you processed it and may not conscioly remember things up to a few years old. A lot of development occurs in that time.
Finding issues is one thing, then can do repair to those wounds so their negative energy doesn't control... then you are freed from that.. body no longer has a need/drive to go into "panic" mode.
Lastly, you may be denying yourself, lying o yourself. that never works... "the truth sets you free".
Somewhere in all that... is your solution. It's valuable to work on such things, it's your life and interferring with your potential!
hope that makes sense!
I don't recall that issue with you, but will pay more attention now.
I just imagine it but i know i could never do it because its scary. I don't know if that counts but thinking of it had happened a few times. I would learn about the ways people do it. What’s the least painful, what’s the quickest. My boyfriend knows about guns and how to use it so i asked him stuff (he jokingly asked, “you’re not sad are you?” Lol we laughed our guts out but yeah its what i was thinking at that time. I've learned where people shoot themselves when they commit suicide. They say more women attempt suicide but more men succeed at it.
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When I feel at my worst and life feels pretty pointless and hopeless I do think about it. But I recognize it's another obstacle for me to overcome and that I should ready myself for much worse. I have a light within me and it is up to me to shine that light so bright that darkness does not get too close to me. Hopefully I can light other people's paths as well.
It hasn't been pleasant, these past five years, and last year really affected me. However, despite not wanting to live any longer, I have not been suicidal. Just not wanting to deal with the rest of life, considering what I've been dealt so far.
Hasn't been for a long time. But, I'm probably being too pessimistic. I've been called a little bitch on here. I'm starting to feel they're right, everyone has stuff they deal with, and here I'm throwing the towel already.
it was pretty bad a week ago. i don't like social media for this reason. people pretend to be "normal and happy" when it's all a ruse. but i woke up and know those are just desperate people lying to themselves and i am better off than they are.
I think about it but I refuse to let people off the hook that easily.
I never do. I am very happy with my life.
a lot i think about it last time i tried was back on December 1st last year
Pretty much never.
Never.
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