I'm an 18-year-old guy and I've never had a girlfriend. I know that I'm still very young and I have "plenty of time to find someone," but I don't know if I can ever get one. I have never even came close to having a girlfriend, nor have I participated in any activities that having a companion of that magnitude would guarantee.
I'm in 12th grade and I still get made fun of all the time for being ugly. Just the other day, I was called "butt fugly" by a girl I don't even know. People I sit with in lunch often look over at me and have to point out how grotesquely hideous I am... without any provocation I might add!
I have been told dozens of times in my life that I'm just too unsightly to ever have what I must say I want most. I know that sounds creepy, but I'm so unbearably lonely that I've tried to kill myself once before. Don't worry, I've gotten over my suicidal ideation problems. I will never kill myself, but I do find myself welcoming death with open arms quite frequently.
I'm not a stupid man, my IQ is in the genius category, so it wouldn't be me making a fool out of myself that would hinder my progression into obtaining a partner. Plus, there are so many ugly people out there with smarts that have landed them boys or girls. Am I really so ugly that I don't qualify for that echelon?
Family members lie to me all the time. They say claptrap like "you just look young for your age!" or "I have no idea what they're talking about. You're cute!" I know they're lying to me. I know I'm ugly and nothing will change my mind. I just want to know if I'm too ugly to ever get a girlfriend... So maybe I can at least attempt to get used to that fact before it becomes an even more crushing blow later on in life. If that is the case, I would rather start getting used to it now rather than later is what I mean.
I have ugly blond hair. No chin. A bulbous nose. No eyebrows. Ugly green eyes. Gigantic, oddly oriented ears. Unbelievably gargantuan lips. A double-chin. I'm only 5'7". I'm pale. I have acne. No jawline. Tremendously large forehead. And freckles...
I type this comment with tears in my eyes. I just want to die so badly anymore because of this problem. I can't ever kill myself, but I want to die more than anything else in the world... there is only one thing I want more than that actually...
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I'm not going to commit suicide, but I don't think I can go on anymore.
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Any girl that says you're "butt fugly" is not worthy of your time and is probably one of those girls who is gonna end up sweeping up elephant poop in a zoo! DO NOT ever let a girl get to you OK everyone is unique in there own way trust me I have a crooked nose(Due to not enough cartilage on one side) and I used to be insecure about it, thought I was super ugly cause I was the only one of my race at my school, and I admit I dressed as a nerd(Baggy Jeans, striped shirts) and people would always point it out and comment on it saying "You should get surgery for it", but when I entered High school I stopped caring, took a more active role in what I wear(Got skinny jeans, solid color polos, plaid shirts) and you know what a few days ago someone who I've know for a while said I had a crooked nose and I replied "I don't give a f**k. You didn't notice all this time that you've known me?" and you know what he said? He said "Yeah I mean I remember you did, but when we entered High School you actually started looking less nerdy and had a lot more confidence so I guess that shrouded the bad features about yourself."
What's the point in my story? Just cause one person says you're ugly or fugly or whatever jerkish thing to doesn't mean another person isn't attracted to you. Another story in terms of girls is that one girl said I was too nerdy, another told me to F off, and one just ignored me(and I'm just a Sophomore in High School!) and you know what yea it hurt and I did feel like crying and being depressed, but I realized I can't keep looking at what girls say and do to me I have to KEEP MOVING FORWARD because there will be other girls who like me cause I'm the only kind of me ethnicity or cause of my nose or cause of my nerdiness and sure enough I think I may be right cause now I am talking to a girl I am attracted to and it's been 2 months and she hasn't told me to f off, that I'm too nerdy, or that I have a crooked nose. Why? "'Because I don't mention or think about it I just think about my good features and what I can do to make those things look more attractive and that's what you need to do just think about your good features and enhance them!
One last thing. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF! That won't get you anywhere except make people that care about you cry, people who were mean to you feel terrible and possibly get bullied because of it, and it will make girls who do like you depressed and sad(Yes they are out there you just aren't looking hard enough for them). You're only 18 you have A LOT to like for and once you are out of High School then you'll realize that High School is the toughest time of your life(IMO) and that College People won't be so cruel or harsh enough to judge you based on your looks!
Cheer up man you sound like a great person and while things may seem tough they will go your way trust me =)2