Is it colorism if so how can I stop it?

Ever since I was a kid, my first crush was very light-skinned and pale. Most of the guys I was attracted to were also light-skinned. I wasn’t too fond of darker skin—it never really appealed to me. I also noticed that darker-skinned people were often more unfriendly or rude toward me, and some would make fun of my skin tone. A few even said I didn’t have any color because of how light I am. This makes me wonder—does that mean I’m colorist? The way I feel has nothing to do with the media or current beauty standards.

Is it colorism if so how can I stop it?
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