Why do I want to laugh at this guy?

Anonymous
so the story is that I have a crush and we have been crushing for more than 7 months (then). I could not understand him very much at that time. Behind my back my friend made a match making with her fiancé friend for me. When she told me about it, I refused. She asked me to leave my crush because this is a sure thing, she went to tell the guy that I lost my mother and she came to tell me that the guy lost his dad, we can bond on that ground. I was not interested to the point that I could not even remember the guy's name. The day of the event comes and that guy with whom my friend linked me looks horrendous. Very ugly and he miss one teeth (I was like wtf how can my friend link me with such a guy?)
i was telling everyone that nothing will happen between this guy and me. Our social status are also very different. After the event, he tried to start a conversation, I did not open his message. Later I messaged him for the first time and rejected him without giving him any reason. Just not to sound like a jerk, After a few months I messaged him telling him that there is another guy in my life and we have completed 1 year already and explain to him that my friend did not consult me before talking to him. His response was ' you know I was prepared for that, I am not looking for any relations now'.
I wanted to reply to him you don't need to say all these because you had no chance with me because I felt sad and uncomfortable I did not reply anything and deleted the message.
I don't know why this is lingering in my mind and I am still thinking about him. I want to message my friend who linked me with him and tell her wtf is wrong with her, she put me in an embarrassing situation.
i did date a guy for a short while that was not handsome but it was pure sexual attraction, it started in bed. with this guy there is nothing that attracts me but why do I think about him and then laugh at his physique? What's wrong with me?
Why do I want to laugh at this guy?
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