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Help with Cousin cuddles?

So for the past few years my cousin and I have always cuddled when we are togethor alone and stuff. She lives rlly far away so only see her like a few times a year. So this one time we are watching tv and we are cuddling like usual. Later the tv goes off and we continue to cuddle and it's rlly nice. Then I say I Wana go to bed and I don't Wana get caught cuddling so she lays down next to me. Then about 2 mins later I tell her I can't sleep and Wana keep cuddling. This time Iam laying flat on my back and she decides to get on top of me and straddles me. She sits right on my thingy and things got interesting. I was hard and Iam sure she could feel it since she was just wearing short shorts. so I couldn't resist and I grabbed her butt and she didn't care. She started to move back and forth for a little while but then she laid on top on me. Lots of tension. This continued for a little longer then told her to get off of me to sleep. So then at this point Iam trying to fall asleep and I can't stop thinking of her. So then after a few mins she said "that was rlly weird" and I just said yeah. Then she asked me what are u thinking about right now? And I was like crap. I made something up but she then said oh cmon what are u rlly thinking of and I just stuck to my story. The next night she didn't want to cuddle and the next time I visited she would push me away but then cuddle for a little while only to push me away again after a few mins. I miss cuddling with her cuz it makes vaca the best. What should I do?
Help with Cousin cuddles?
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