Guy's Behavior

Missing someone I shouldn’t be missing? I Know the feelings weren’t mutual but maybe we can give it a better shot if I’ve changed and he’s changed?

He said ‘I apologise for what I have done and how I may have lead you on I see that now, I accept it and Hopefully put it eventually behind us even if u may always remind yourself about it but obviously how we are as two people I never truly could reciprocate your energy as you loved me and I did care but not on your level and don’t want it to be another cycle and hurt you again cause of this, I think it’s best if we fully take time off as I can understand you don’t wanna talk anymore so it’s best if we do our own **** and I can let you live on ur life in less pain and peace and you can block me or not but obviously For a while it’s best not to talk as I know I would hurt u sooner than later and rather stop now before it’s too late ‘. I really miss him it’s been months since we last contacted eachother , we’re only 18 he's started uni and I’m taking a gap year. We have mutual friends maybe we can have a gathering and he will be there and see my glow up and see how I’ve been and we might get close again hoping things will be diffeeent this time , i used to not take care of myself I was very overweight rn I’m taking care of myself trying to glow up and slowly losing weight. I miss him so much he was my peace. What happened was we agreed to be friends with benefits was going to have s*x on my birthday but I backed out last min, he could see I was very very nervous and looked very concerned and kept asking r u sure 100% thrn i said yeah but after he sucked my boobs , I told him I don’t wanna do it cus I’m on my period it will hurt so nothing happened. Anwyays 4 aftr we had leavers and me and him stayed after school after all our frisnds left and then he told me to come sit on the sofa hugged and held my hand. Then he didn’t end up coming to our restaurant plan and decided to go clubbing with people he chatted shit about what annoyed me. So we argued then after it was awkward and when I asked him why she’s being off with me he said things have changed

Missing someone I shouldn’t be missing? I Know the feelings weren’t mutual but maybe we can give it a better shot if I’ve changed and he’s changed?
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