Why does life keep humiliating me when I’m not even cocky?

Simple example I like someone thought hey she only likes me also boom she starts talking to another guy I never took my shot everybody knows feels bad. Another simple example I’m good at a sport one day but not just any day let’s say it’s in front of all my friends at a special event or something I get beat really bad. Embarrassed both of these times feeling bad when I was never cocky to begin with so why does it feel so personal and like I deserve it for what?

Why does life keep humiliating me when I’m not even cocky?
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