Questions: Guy's Behavior

There are times I had my eyes wonder and I have lecherous thoughts. I actually have twice in my life had a random sexual encounters with two attractive women who didn’t even ask my name. They initiated and didn’t care about conversation.

It was thrilling in the moment but I didn’t also feel great about it later I actually tried to slow things down but it felt like it was killing the rush.

I have never did the opposite. I’ve had one night stands where I made the moves first but I did spend some time getting to know the girl first. It’s actually very dangerous nowadays (false allegations) for a man to move that fast. I can’t and won’t do it.

But there is a stereotype that ALL men look at women as “objects” that is grossly overrated. Some definitely do. But I believe to a certain extent most guys do want at least minimal discussion before jumping in.

But really do women still believe that most men think this way? At best only 20% of them would act like this. Not 80%.

I have this old drinking buddy who always wants to come over to my place to drink after work rather than going home to his wife and kid.
- He always drinks the same gross whiskey and water and will absolutely not drink anything else.
- He drinks so often that he doesn't even get a buzz so what's the point? He's basically just an alcoholic.
- He wants to watch movies, but he never laughs at any comedy we watch, and no matter what I put on he says he's seen it already.
- He just wants to complain about work and bitch about his wife's family. This guy is no fun to drink with.

I turn 28 later this year as I inch very close to hitting my 30s. I have missed a lot of major developmental milestones in my youth, and I feel like I am reaping it today.

I have never had a real girlfriend or been in an actual relationship. I have only had sex with one woman only one time during a weekend fling. She was 16; I was 20. I felt like I had to sell my soul to get this opportunity. She was also a virgin too supposedly. I never actually "made love" to a woman before.

Meanwhile, I am watching the vast majority of my peers growing up get married, have kids, and/or both.

I have a very bad track record. I have been unable to maintain stable employment. I never held a job for more than a year. My mental health sucks. I also have a criminal record now (stalking and harassment). I am socially inept.

In terms of socio-emotional development, I am very behind and immature for my age. I feel I haven't "fulfilled" my youth to move on to the next stages in life.