It seems like I never know what to do, when it comes to life and unexpected situations. It seems like everyone around me has everything figured out, and able to get things done. I feel like if I were in that same situation I wouldn't know what to do. For example: God forbid something happened to one of my parents and I had to take over. I wouldn't know where to start to really help them, or handle their affairs (I know this is on the more extreme). I am older and don't have my own place yet (trying to make a dent in my loans ie: student loans, and other loans, etc). This is another thing I am afraid of, getting my first home due to my financial situation, and if something were to break (not knowing how to fix it). In addition, always in fear of possibly losing my job and not able to find another one (yes I know others make it through, but it still is a big fear). Not to mention knowing that I want more out of life, but not knowing what to do and how to get to where I want to go (even after figuring out the what). This even extends to my social/love life, not knowing where to go and what to say or just let go and have fun (I tend to be very rigid and quiet until I get to know you, but even then I still am a little on the serious side). I have been told I used to be more outgoing and sociable, but have gotten very quiet and introverted. From what you guys have seen in this post is a lot of uncertainty and just not sure of myself (I just figure I am not good or smart enough to figure things out and in a good period of time). Not to mention I feel very unmotivated, I lost that grind/grit to keep moving on, and feel "broken," and don't know how to fix the problem and get motivated. I need some advice please.
Scared to live life?
