I see food and I actually have to force myself to eat.

[Anonymous]

I use to be anorexic. That was in eight grade.

When we go back to school I'll be a junior. I've still had the occasional "dang you need to lose weight" or the "don't eat that" thought, but just overlooked it.

But now, I think I'm becoming it again. I don't know what to do. I know its super unhealthy for you and stuff. Just I see food and I actually have to force myself to eat. Eating rice was tough.

Help me get that voice out of my head? I want to be skinny, that's all that my head will tell me on this subject.

[arsenal25]

well I think the best thing for you to do is talk to someone you trust, talk to your psychiatrist if you have one. Do you have a doctor that treated you? I would talk to them, having those thoughts is not healthy and falling back slowly is not good either well you know that. I don't think you should ignore these thoughts its hard to get them out of your head, talk to your parents if you want but I would def. talk to someone if you really don't want to repeat what happened to you

[MercuryKitten]

Your anorexia is symbolic of an underlying problem... usually something having to do with feeling out of control. I suggest talking to a counselor or your doctor now, before it gets a major hold on you again.

[WaitingAtTheDoor]

What was it you did to handle the problem in the past?

Were there members of your family and friends that supported you through recovery?

Was their a doctor you saw for check ups during your healthy weight gain?

I suggest reaching out to your support chain to help you through moments of weakness such as this.

[Asker]

Well honestly, people were scared I was going to die, so there fear just rubbed off on me, and I slowly started to eat again.

[WaitingAtTheDoor]

Ok, in that case you should really consider reaching out and getting a serious discussion going with your family about them helping you.

If you're about to relapse into starvation, the potential risks can be expotentially worse than what they were before.

Let people know (who you trust) that you need help ensuring you stay on a proper diet.

[Asker]

Alright, I'll try to think of someone to talk to about this. Thanks.

[Anonymous]

There's no one here that's going be able to help you. Ask someone in person for help, and do what you did last time.