Sometimes I think about killing my pet. Do I have some deep underlining issues?

[Anonymous]

Not sure why but sometimes I've had images pop into my head about different ways of killing my pet. I've always had violent thoughts about hurting others since childhood, but I've kept them supressed because I know I'll be sad if I carry them out. Normally when I write down how I want to hurt or kill someone the thoughts go away.

[Anonymous]

Yeah... possibly. You know that already ;p

Consider seeing a therapist - someone trained who talked to you more in depth would be able to tell you if you should worry. Maybe it's on the "normal" side of things... but being sure might be nice. Remember, they have to be confidential unless you're actually planning to do something, which you aren't.

[Asker]

Yeah, I'm just worried that if it isn't "normal" they might send me to a mental hospital which is why I haven't told anyone. I've lived this long without acting on them but they might not see me as having it under control.

[Opinion Owner]

US here: Oh, you've got to be pretty far off the deep end before they'll send you to a mental hospital. I actually read up on the rules in NC a while ago... there are really big restrictions on when they can do that.

And if you do have other behavior that matches something like BiPolar, there are really good drugs out there for that. And if you're not actually a good candidate for drugs, they'll be able to tell you where you stand & when/if you should ever worry. They'll also be able to give you more resources if you need them.

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See if you can find some recommendations/reviews in the area you're in.

[Asker]

My school offers free psychiatrist sessions. I could go there.

[Opinion Owner]

Now *that* is a sensible thing for a school to do. It's not like students don't have lots of stress or anything, right?

Going there is sensible too ;) But you already sound sensible, whereas I'm not used to schools doing sensible things.

[TripleAce]

Bi polar is more extreme highs and extreme lows. If your not experiencing that your not bi polar

It's normal to some extent but not At your level. You have something, monitor this carefully. And don't let it get too far

[Asker]

Monitor it how?

[TripleAce]

Keep track of your thoughts and feelings about it

Sometimes people get to a point of not even knowing that there doing something wrong.. if you feel this and it doesn't subside in the next year. You need to see someone for it

[Asker]

Alright, I'll start monitoring it.

[Anonymous]

NO NO PLEASE DON'T! IT'S JUST A HARMLESS animal who did nothing wrong to you. Please don't hurt it. You should put it up for adoption so you do not hurt the poor thing...

[Asker]

I don't want to give up my pet because I do love her but sometimes these thoughts just pop into my head.

[Opinion Owner]

:( .

[MissNowhere]

what the fuck, you do have some issues indeed, I would never even think about harming my cats in any way.

[JustinCaseUDontKnow]

Yes, you sound like possible Bipolar , i would write down your thoughts

[Asker]

Writing has helped a lot with controlling these thoughts. Kind of like an outlet. I didn't know bipolar people go through this.

[JustinCaseUDontKnow]

Oh yeah Bipolar has made me 70 % chance of having thoughts of harming others,
harming pets.

[JustinCaseUDontKnow]

I never acted out on my thoughts cause than i get fear

[Asker]

Oh I see. I've never told anyone because I didn't want to be sent away. So I've never been diagnosed.

[JustinCaseUDontKnow]

It's a problem that I've came long way and is managing to overcome

[Asker]

Thank you for the advice. :)

[JustinCaseUDontKnow]

You're welcome :) -Hugs-
Hope things get better i know how you feel :/

[Anonymous]

You might want to see someone 'bout that, don't want another Cecil killer out there

[Asker]

No, they'd send me to a mental hospital since killing animals is a sign of a future serial killer. Also I had a similar conversation with one of my teachers in high school without mentioning my thoughts. She told me she had a student who had an anger journal and she read it. She found it disturbing and told the school and his parents. He was then sent to the mental hospital for a while.

[Opinion Owner]

Don't you think that's where you deserve to be though?

[Opinion Owner]

Hitler had homicidal thoughts, and he carried them out

[Opinion Owner]

Genocidal, even, and eventually suicidal

[Asker]

No, I don't believe I should be there. You shouldn't lock someone up for something they think and haven't acted on.

[Opinion Owner]

Yes, but you have thoughts of doing it

[Hopefuldreamer8]

Get rid of your pet and get help.

[jakeofalltrades]

yeah, you might want to see a shrink