Someone help me? Do I need to seek help?

Anonymous
Really long... Sorry.

I'm worried about myself. I'm starting to think I have a personality disorder. I'm 13, so I don't really know, I just know that my peers don't act like me. Let's start with this: I experience intense fear of abandonment, I get depressed, mad, anxious, insecure and I can separate myself from other people. Let me give you an example, my friend didn't sit by me and sat by another friend, so I started to huff and puff, I pretty much kicker over a chair, screamed at my other friend, and became isolated. I also once slashed at my wrists because some dude who I didn't even know didn't text back... There is at least once a week where I just become so moody, it switches from furious, depressed and anxious in just a few hours. I don't experience this everyday, but I still get mad. This moods normally come from the fear abandonment. Another symptom is see is that i don't have a clear idea of myself, I constantly change my life goals and everything. I also kind of feel empty and get bored easily. I self harm, I do have moments where I binge eat, i know that when I get a car, I'm going to be reckless. I have driven a four wheeler and I don't care if I'm too fast or anything, I crashed once. I'm not really sure if I experiance "splitting" but I think I kind of do. I don't even know. I don't feel like I experiance enough to go to a doctor. I'm to scared to tell my parents because they are just going to dismiss it, say that I'm just a teen. what do you think? Thanks for reading...
Someone help me? Do I need to seek help?
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