I hate my stupid body?

I gain more weight then I try to put off, then I starve for a while. I then become really hungry and eat constantly and I feel like I'm going crazy. I exercise but I never feel anything then I get really discouraged while I work out and get depressed. I want to cutt myself really bad right now but my mom his the razors. I went on the weight scale and it said I was over 130 and I got really angry and started punching my face and my stomach. I tried calling a help line but they were busy. I feel like I'm going crazy and I don't know what to do. I've been throwing up what I've been eating but im still a fat unnatractive price of shit and I feel trapped. I don't know what to do
I hate my stupid body?
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