Why do I shut of my emotions and feelings when something is going wrong in my life?

[Anonymous]

I start going towards self destructive behavior like sleeping with multipul woman, drinking excessively and fighting.

I don't want to be like that anymore. I want to learn towards healthy behavior when I'm hurt. Its just I feel like my heart died at a young age.

[Anonymous]

I know what you mean. I can be kind of selfdestructive too, and i think what it is with me anyway, that when most people are actually 'exploding' from feelings (like bursting out in tears, or getting really angry whatever) i am 'imploding'. I start to feel numb kindoff. won't drag you into psychological stuff too much, but i think it might be caused by having feelings that were 'unheard' or 'overlooked' in the past. Like not taken seriously, whether by you or other people, or both. Maybe you should consider talking to someone about that point when you had a young aged and your heart died.

[Opinion Owner]

Also, is it that you do stuff like that, because it sounds kind of radical, because you're trying to feel something? Or is it more like you want to mess your life up even more? Or like, fuck it, things aren't going right anyway so why not do stupid things because nothing is working?

[kaylaS91]

Try to be more open about how you feel when things get tough and you know that you'd normally start to bottle it up and express them in ways that turn self-destructive.

I'm kind of the same as you, or used to be horrible at bottling up any and all anxiety/frustration I had. What worked for me was finding a friend to whom I could vent about my issues, which in itself helps a lot. Hitting the gym when the emotional overload gets a bit too much helps a ton as well.
Gym, friends, or even writing how you feel in a diary/journal of some sort are all oddly therapeutic.