Trigger warning r**e - Am I Worth It?

[TrashQueen13]

So back to a week before I was 16 I was raped. Many have told me it was assult but I don't fully understand the difference. When I came out about it and was REALLY scared was on my birthday... which is when I was told that I was also "assulted" at 2 months old but the guy was never charged because we had moved state by then. I am now currently 20 and struggle with my self esteem along with mental health such as autism and PTSD that I've had my whole life as well as other diagnosis such as anxiety and depression.

I guess my question here is am I still worth it? I have a boyfriend who loves me very much but I have no local friends. My closest friend lives an hour away. My boyfriend lives 3 and 1/2 hours away and that's one way!

I fear I'm not worth it because I have no friends who make time for me vs me who does anything for them when they won't do anything for me

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Sorry it put this under health and fitness I swear I clicked other

[SueShe]

Whether you are a survivor of r***e, breast cancer or anything else, you are always worth it. It is not the experience that you went through that makes a person be worth or not.

Furthermore, everyone is worth something to a number of people. You must first work on yourself and realize that you are special. Once you have accepted yourself, others will accept you too. If you give this aura of deception and lack of self esteem, people will notice but if you show confidence, they will likely be attracted to the positive side you are showing them.

Also, I think the topic "Health and Fitness" is suited for your question but if you wish to change it, I can do it for you. Just say the word. Good luck.

[Derekk]

I'm sorry to hear about everything that you've gone through.

You are 100% worth it as a human being and a partner. One thing that I've learned from interacting with survivors of sexual abuse and other traumatic incidents is that they often have a deep and profound empathy for others who are struggling or who are victims of abusive circumstances. What we experience in our lives, the good and the bad, all plays a role in shaping us as individuals, and you should be very proud of yourself for being as strong as you've been. You sound like you'd be a terrific friend, and your boyfriend is a lucky man :)

If it's time to meet other people, maybe you can find the time to work with somebody to help you get out there and make some new friends. Sometimes it just takes having a bigger social circle to realize that we ARE appreciated.

[Anonymous]

Your situation and how you feel about it will always be better if you choose to care about yourself and do your best to improve your life.

Life isn't fair, we aren't all dealt the same hand but all you can do is make the best of whatever you have, try to overcome your problems and persue your interests and desires to the best of your ability and forgive yourself for not being perfect.

[Anonymous]

Of course you have worth! Please stay strong 💓 Being a rape survivor doesn’t make you any less worthy. Also, I’d still suggest reporting the rape/assault because that guy could commit rape again.

[MDF_ANJ]

What does rape have to do with wether your worth it or not, if you've got people that love you and a boyfriend who supports you, you've already got more than a lot of people. You are worth it, but you won't realize you are worth it untill you force yourself to realize it.

[Fuentes]

Your always worth it thats why you won the race as a sperm to the egg too breath life think about the others who didn't make it, stuff happens and the evil people will get theirs soon but don't doubt yourself and let evil win

[Iron_Man]

Do you have to not find yourself first