Why am I so incompetent?

snape72919
I was working with intellectually disabled adults, and it was in a group home setting. I liked it at first, but im naturally shy so it's hard for me to start conversations. I did make small talk sometimes with them but it wasn't enough. These guys were high functioning, meaning I feel like I should live in a group home. Here's the reasons.
1. I'm bad with money, I'm 24 and I'm helping pay bills at home.
2. I feel like my friends are friends with me out of pity. I've had these friends since elementary school.
3. I have a hard time meeting new people, with my social skills.
4. my social skills are so bad, I lose my train of thoughts. sometimes can't recollect many memories. but I do overthink a lot I don't know
5. I do stupid shit sometimes.
6. I feel like I am intellectually disabled
7. I got an IQ of 73 in high school on a computer test.
8. I make repitive posts online.
9. my self esteem, depression and anxiety are suffering.
10. I feel like everyone around me is nice to me because I'm special. my friends sometimes treat me like I don't know anything
11. I was in special education classes, and almost didn't graduate on time. I did miss a lot of school though.

I wanna be normal. but I'll probably have to move into a group home cause I'm living at home now with my half paralyzed dog. how come I haven't been diagnosed with this sooner? I wanna be confident, I wanna defend myself. I wanna tell people the truth and be bold. because this shy insecure shit isn't cutting it with me. it bothers me.

Am I dumb? Whats going on? Is it my overthinking and anxiety? I got diagnosed with ADD too back in middle school.

A guy on here said I was and it "sounds like I'm stupid"
Why am I so incompetent?
1 Opinion