How can I make myself eat from so much stress, anxiety, and depression?

[Anonymous]

So many negative things have been happening either all at once or back to back. Its so hard for me to concentrate at work to the point I feel I have to leave early to cry at home. Then when im at home I want to be with my family but when im with family I get anxiety and want to be alone in my room to cry. If I try solving one thing another problem occurs. Lately its just been things I can't control and I almost feel like im strapped on a chair and going through a horrible Rollercoaster. All I have left is to cry which is what im doing now. Im trying to eat but I just can't its taking about 20 min to swallow 2 bites. I try talking to friends and they just get away and it leaves me feeling hopeless and alone. I haven't been getting much sleep so I feel my thoughts are getting darker. I'm also having horrible nightmares and makes me not want to sleep

[TheMajesticKing777]

I feel like you should try finding some solutions to your problems and even if it's not a solution that will fix your problem completely it can be a solution for your own mental health that can fix your anxiety and emotional pain, do you mind sharing what the problems are?

[Asker]

One of them is that my dad is in the hospital they're trying to figure out how he got bacteria in his stomach and blood. Since beginning this year he has had graft vs host disease.
Another problem is a guy I been dating I also live in the same house since I rent a room. It was going great until a month ago I made a mistake with my birth control and we have been stressing if im pregnant or not. Tomorrow I will take my test but im so worried since Sunday night I had weird pink discharge. Ever since the pregnancy scare he got so distant except past week he has been more closer to me but as of this past Friday and Sunday I feel he's been bringing a girl to the house because he has the house and his room too clean and organized. He also put away his mail which is suspicious. He tried talking to me yesterday like always but I had too many thoughts about what if there is another girl coming here so I was serious with water eyes. He kept asking whats wrong and I kept saying doesn't matter telling you how I feel.
The main problem about that is that I had agreed when he said we can date other people. I didn't want to say no because I knew he wouldn't give me a chance. I wish I could be like him not catching feelings
He kept asking for me to tell him and if it was something about him. I just said yes but no point saying. He just said "what? I just went to the gym" I said not about that but whatever. He then was trying to show me funny videos but I was not in the mood and he went to sleep. Then today he ignored me when I asked if he ate. He just slammed his door. So I didn't want to go to him after. He just went to my room and asked what im doing and I told him my dads status.

[Asker]

My fear is also that when I see my pregnancy test if its negative what if he says good and disappears? I have so many fears like that and I hate how he got out of a long term relationship about a year ago so he's not ready for a relationship. He's told me couple months ago "wrong timing" which hurts

[TheMajesticKing777]

So why didn't you take a plan b? I feel like you should still try taking one even tho it would have been more effective right after the sex, the problem here is your lack of communication, how do you expect to fix a problem if you don't speak up, tell him how you feel cause there's two outcomes of doing so, he tries to fix the problem somehow or he avoids it and doesn't care and by not telling him you are only eliminate the first option which leaves you in a hole, communication keeps relationships alive and he should know how you feel, stop stressing so much about it and grab the ropes of the bull and start taking control, tell him how you feel

[Asker]

Well I have nexplanon but when I asked my doctor he said it would be fine but I just want to make sure taking test

[TheMajesticKing777]

What's nexplanon?

[Asker]

Its a arm implant birth control. The thing is I took antibiotics supposedly it doesn't affect the birth control but there's a possibility it could make it stop working and that was something I didn't know. I'm worried because I been having weird bleeding since Sunday night which is little more than a month that incident happened. Its not really bleeding its more like strange gooey red/brown stuff that sometimes looks pink. I'm so worried good thing I have my pregnancy test today but im hoping I'm not pregnant

[Asker]

I tried eating breakfast today but only had 2 bites French toast with cup of milk. I'm trying to eat but its so hard I feel my throat closed and don't feel hungry. I feel so tired I just want to lay down and sleep all day if I could. I wish I can avoid all my problems and just cry myself to sleep

[TheMajesticKing777]

You shouldn't stress about something if you don't know, iyou should call and ask your doctor, maybe you can get some helpful information by asking your doctor

[Asker]

I feel my doctor is being kinda a dick tho. I told him my symptoms im having of weird discharge and he said "well you would have other symptoms not just that and why you so worried being pregnant?" I did have other symptoms last week but not sure if its stress related I just want to get tested already. I been waiting on the time to get off of work today. I think I still have to wait a day or 2 for results. I'm trying to not stress and thinking well I was able to wait more than a month I can wait a day more

[Asker]

Than I think well what if I was pregnant and had a early miscarriage at 5 weeks from so much stress? I just want to know already I feel its driving me all crazy

[TheMajesticKing777]

Have you tried pregnancy tests that come in the pack or something cause why not just try those right now to keep you patient

[Asker]

I wanted to try those but the damn guy im dating specifically wants the hospital test to make sure its accurate. I finally went got urine and blood test but waiting on my results. I tried exercising to keep my mind busy but I couldn't

[TheMajesticKing777]

Why can't you do both, while you wait for the results you get tested with the other ones to get an idea and a quick result

[Asker]

Thats true I will do that because I feel anxious and just want to know already

[TheMajesticKing777]

😁👍

[Asker]

Good news! I'm not pregnant 😊 I feel so relieved! Now I'm just worried that he won't want anything to do with me or am I just overthinking?

[TheMajesticKing777]

I figured, in a month you should've already had more symptoms than just discharge I think, either ways whatever happens at least you aren't pregnant which was probably a real life changer no matter how you look at that situation.

[Asker]

True thats the best part. I'm still really nervous to tell him because for some reason I feel he's gonna be distant forever

[Asker]

Another good news my dad should be out tomorrow from hospital he's a lot better now. The only thing stressing me is with the guy I'm dating. I just showed him my results telling him its negative and he looked at it confused saying "it doesn't even show what test it is" I told him it was blood test and says negative. Then I tried changing subject asking how did work go with a company visit. He just said "with what?" I said work how did it go? He just said "I didn't see them i avoided them. Anyways I'm exhausted going to take a nap". I wanted to tell him sorry but just felt so nervous. I been wanting to ask him for a hug too but I feel it would be clingy or desperate. Do you think so if I ask a hug?

[Asker]

Would that push him away more? I been also wanting to ask him if he would like to go out to a car show next weekend but im just so afraid of what he will say because my fear right now is that he's done with me. This is what I been stressing a whole month

[Asker]

Like for example he said he was going to nap because he feels tired. He did say earlier that he went to sleep at 4am but just now I heard him laughing in his room he's just on his computer or phone... that makes me feel so much anxiety! I feel he's avoiding me and its driving me crazy

[Asker]

You might be thinking well if he took you out to eat last weekend and talked to you earlier today and other days you're fine. But whats in my head is couple months back he told me about his ex who forgot her pill and she said "well what if the baby looks like you" and he got mad but turned out she wasn't pregnant. He kept talking to her until he found out she wasn't pregnant and then he left her but there was more problems involved as she was a drunk or whatever but thats what im afraid he will do

[TheMajesticKing777]

Why would he be done with you if you aren't pregnant tho?

[TheMajesticKing777]

Does he want a child?

[Asker]

Me and him dont want a child at all. I just fear that he won't want anything with me. It's more of my mind that fucks with me. Few hours after he actually went to talk to me like usual and he was making jokes

[Asker]

I just hate how my mind overthinks everything and causing myself unnecessary stress. I dont know how to stop being like this

[TheMajesticKing777]

I feel like that's a personality trait but try keeping it under control

[Asker]

Yeah its hard my anxiety/over thinking takes me over feels horrible when that happens. I'm thinking of telling my dr to get medicine or something or to try to rest taking my mind off

[TheMajesticKing777]

It wouldn't be a bad idea

[Asker]

Yeah I think I need it its getting out of control for me

[ManofHistory]

Please, take care of yourself! It sounds like you might have depression and that is just going to get worse and worse until you can't handle it anymore. Try going to a therapist or you can talk to me if you want a blank face instead.

[Asker]

My dad went to the hospital since Friday night he hasn't been feeling good. He is stable at hospital but they don't know how he has bacteria in his stomach and now in his blood stream. To make things worse the person I've been dating I noticed he's been acting distant with me the past month ever since I had a pregnancy scare. He's been getting closer to me but this Friday and Sunday he's been acting suspicious like he's seeing someone else. What sucks so much he has told me that we can see other people and I agreed to it but I really didn't want to. I've only dated him past several months. I just feel like shit. He's done this to me oct to dec he brought some lady and stopped talking to her.

[Asker]

He noticed I had tears in my eyes and asked whats wrong and I just said "nothing" he kept asking whats wrong? And I just said "whats the point telling you how I feel it doesn't matter". I wanted to tell him but felt I was gonna look crazy or like a dummy. He said "I just came from the gym" I said its not about that. Then he said "okay dont tell me" that night he tried showing me funny videos and he would look at me smiling but I was serious because I kept thinking about another girl here. He then asked "what happened at your family's why are you upset?" I just said "my dad is at the hospital" and I cried. Today he looked mad at me and he ignored me which hurt me most. He walked by me and I asked "did you eat?" And he slammed his door. I hate myself too because I dont want to be alone and I hate that I rather have bad company

[Asker]

All of that combined I can't sleep because I feel im not good enough for him to be talking to someone else and I feel I won't win. I feel so down and hate being ignored because it makes me desperate and it gets to the point where I keep going to him even tho my head is telling me to stop. I tried forcing myself to eat and ate most of my burrito but still feel sick after

[Asker]

I told him just now that I haven't been able to eat from stress and he told me to try or at least have a shake. It just sucks because I feel sick and weak. I feel I can't even stand for too long because I will faint. I just want to lay in bed forever. Whats sad is earlier today I was crossing the street and a truck was driving fast I didn't even care if it hit me. I took my time and heard the truck pass me just barely miss me and honked

[ManofHistory]

hmm, sounds like it isn't raining but is rather pouring. I think it is incredibly important that you set boundaries with your boyfriend. If you are not comfortable having an open relationship, which you aren't then you need to make that very clear to him.

[Asker]

Yeah thats the thing too im just dating him. He's not my boyfriend but it still hurts :(

[Asker]

It just sucks so much because I wish he could be my boyfriend I like his company

[ManofHistory]

The only way it's going to happen is if you ask him and if he doesn't want to be your boyfriend then maybe it's time to start preparing?

[Asker]

I talked to him before about it but he told me to not force him into relationship because he's not ready since he broke up with his girlfriend last year who he was with several years.. thats something that worries me what if im a rebound. I have asked him if I am and supposedly he says I'm not rebound