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How does anxiety affect you?

I decided to try therapy again because this brain fog is terrible. I've had 2 meetings with her, the last meeting, she told me my diagnosis, but I forgot. However, my disability social worker asked for some paperwork from them, so while I was on the phone, I asked.
I have generalized anxiety disorder. Society already has a bad medial representation of anxiety, so it's nothing I want to claim. I started looking up videos about it. I dwelled on the fact that i kept repeating to my therapist that the brainfog was causing my anxiety whenever she mentioned anxiety can cause brainfog. But, I think denying the anxiety was doing more harm than good. As I kept watching videos, I started to experience pain, yet I kept watching. Everything was so standard. Then I saw one video, and the lady sat there and read about 25 physical symptoms anxiety could cause. Then, she gave examples of experiences that I related to. Then, I found some videos of "intellualizers in therapy." Everything started to click, and the pain I was feeling slowly subsided. I think im an intellualizer, and I need help, but regular therapy isn't going to help me because my body only accepts "safety" when I understand the reason behind it. For the past year, my body got worse because I was consuming the wrong content based on past experiences. When I got gaslit by the doctors or my test results came back as normal, it made my body worse because I was activating my fight, flight freeze, or fawn nervous system more. Since I didn't trust the doctors, I didn't find the cause, the symptoms progressed, and the doctors dismissed the concrete evidence, I felt more lost. When i dwelled on the things that I disagreed with or noticed my plan getting messed up, it cause me real pain. When I dwell on good things or things I understood, no pain. Both types of thinking take up my time. I want to stop overthinking. That's another thing that I have to bring up next week.
How does anxiety affect you?
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